Little Ramble

Still feeling blah, but ok.  Throat still a bit sore, felt tired and spacey.  But onward.  Packed a bit, still have more to pack.

Everything was signed for the mortgage/bridge and off it went, everything was fine ...... until they input and realized we have a land lease, duh, we told you.  Nobody really went into that, so now although, apparently we have the mortgage and the bridge IF they get back to us.  Last we heard we would need to pay more for the bridge.  All day we called the broker - nothing, no call back, so we called the realtor - she emailed him.  We are waiting to hear what is happening.  Stress.

Saw Marly today.  Really like her.  She suggested working on rebooting me to original manufacturing setting!  ha ha ha.  But she's right.  Basically restart me back to original being before I started all the reasons I crave and need to eat/food for survival.  Which I laughed, because I told her after the last session I heard a thought about how I gain weight so that I can lose weight as that's what I do / that's what I know to do.

What is normal?  If I wasn't gaining and losing weight.... what am I suppose to be doing? She was right in alignment with where I am without me saying.  Glad I have another appointment with her before we move.  (God, I pray we are moving and everything settles before Sept 8).

Then I can still she her, but less and about 2 hours one way.  For now, I'm working on the outcome of today's session.  And working at not stressing over the bridge loan.