So I am enjoying the new drive. I do like the new SUV, and it still makes me happy driving it.
Tho I do wonder if believing in the manifesting, etc, that we could have gotten like a Lexus or Mercedes. Technically, the belief of manifesting - the answer is yes. So, did I not trust in the Vortex and that there is a more expensive SUV in there? Best not to dwell on that. I am happy with the Kia.
Waiting for the butterfly to come in - should be in the next few weeks. Some things from Amazon take a long while.
Jax is doing well, tho still experiences some back issues. Going to see Dr Steve with him today for an adjustment.
WW is fine. Not following it, but just aligning with what I'm eating. And I'm meditating more. Not much to report on either of those things at the moment.
Cleaned up some weeds this week. With all the rains we have had, it helps the pulling of the weeds. Don't have anything as much as we had last year!!! So glad about that. Go out do a bit here and there, and boom - the back is done. Just have the front to do now.
That's about it for now.
Augh. Its 1230am. I can't sleep. I knew that was going to be a bit of a gamble. I went to bed at 8pm because I just couldn't keep my eyes open. I was so wiped. Now I'm awake.
We got our SUV today. Was there for 2 1/2 hours. Did the financial stuff, then Kayla (salesperson) spent the rest of the time going thru each and every button on the SUV. Explained the radio/menu stuff too. She was the best seller I've ever met. She took the time to explain it all, made sure we knew things, answered all our questions, - showed me were and how to use the key if I need to. That I hope I never will need to do - very difficult - easy as to where and how, but difficult to get the handle off the door to get to the key hole.
Jax was with us. We had gone to Dr Steve first. He's very pleased with Jax and said he could go back to Tail Waggin - but monitored. He will be happy about that! Jax misses going there. I will take him in June. Talked with Sue the other day - had coffee with her, and said we will plan her dog Lilly and Jax can get together at TWaggin.
Was strange driving home - different car. Higher up of course. Had to learn the feel of his SUV.
Now I need a new goal. Was happy to get the SUV, happy to get home with it, but it's done with now, and just an SUV .... that I really like. So next goal.....
Maybe focus on that $$$$$?
I just can't think of something. Thought about moving. But still don't know where to move to. Also, being here I'm getting use to places in London. I like the people and church. Glad about Dr Steve. Made a few friends finally around. Cate and Sue, and from church - Sandy.
Saw Dr Leung on Wednesday. Went to see mom first. Then to the doc. That was a long day too! She was ok with my Methotrexate being taken once a month. Maybe more like once every 6 weeks. She explained that my upper back is creating bone inside on the spine. I have to be careful. If my body is tired, rest. Don't push things. Figure out easy ways. Which I said I already do - I buy precut vegs as I can't really cut them etc. I watch when I'm on stairs.
Mom is struggling with sis over D. She says that mom shouldn't let her son D sleep there - let him sleep on the park bench - then maybe he will come home. He's 17 almost 18 and hoping to get into the army this summer. He's never going back home - too many problems and controls/rules. So now mom and sis aren't talking. I'm so very glad I'm not close there and involved. Sis doesn't talk to me as it is. I hope he gets into the army. I can see the stress on mom. She's not focused on general things, and missing comments. AJ talked a bit and she didn't hear or answer him at times. I think she's too worried about D and trying not to control him either, but keep him safe until he gets into the army. I told her to stop pushing him towards sis etc. It's not going to work - as I've said for a year now. Very surprisingly I mentioned the SUV and she asked about the cost, which I didn't answer, and nodded when she got to a price and continued talking. She said that it was a good idea, we were still young enough for a new SUV, need the safety. She didn't comment anything on the money and me spending it. It was a confirmation that I am vibrating at a higher level finally with that issue about mom and money and her comments on my spending. Or she's given up on it as it's no use. Either way - good. Will probably go visit her some time in June.
Watching The Lost Viking Army on TV. Interesting. Think i will end here, and continue watching it.
Ta
Thought I'd post a few funnies:
We looked at more SUVs. Toyota got so close. I liked it, but it just wasn't it. The rest were nice, but didn't give me a thrill. None gave me that thrill. That THIS IS IT!!!
We went back to Kia today. What I drove was a 2020 SX Turbo. And it THRILLED me. I got a feeling, an excitement when I drove. But she had given us the 2020 EX Prem pricing and the 2018 SX Turbo pricing. There was also a possible 2019 EX Prem she might find.
I said I had to drive the EX. She gave me a 2020 EX.
It was ..... nice.
Just simply nice. I liked it, but it didn't thrill me. It didn't give me that feeling. And the weirdest thing was, the EX looked inside just like the SX. It had so close a feel in driving, but not as much as the SX. Not that one could find that power difference. It was just that tiny bit different.
When I sat in the 2018 SX Turbo, it felt nicer then the EX, but not as good as the 2020 SX.
I was so very, very stunned.
Sitting in the EX I could sense a difference, but couldn't say exactly what it is. When I sat in the 2018 SX it wasn't a crisp looking as the 2020. It was still nicer then the EX. But had just that bit of less luxury to it.
I was still very stunned on how I was very clear that I felt thrilled and excited in only the 2020 SX Turbo. The cost was a bit more.
We just had to figure out - the grey or the black cherry. The copper was out. I saw it and knew I couldn't look at it for long. We liked the grey, but again, not in the long run. Blue and Red they would have to find (extra cost probably) and was not colours we'd like. So .... the winner was Black Cherry.
We went back and forth about cost for days. Decided before hand on some money down and rest on credit. With the trade in. And a long talk with AJ on how he felt about the money as we used a chunk of his TFSA - our living on money, along with now we need to pay out extra monthly. He thought long about it, and was good. He agreed not to freak out about the money - do a more Abraham Hicks focus on money etc. Works for me.
Next week.....with the holiday Monday, and the transfer of money, and the cleaning of the car etc... we plan to pick up our new 2020 SX Turbo Sportage - Black Cherry on Friday. Calling it Sporty Vortee. (Sportage and Vortex - from Abraham Hicks/where all things come from when manifested). AJ laughs. I'm going to add butterfly decal to it, and ordering a personalized license plate. YEAH!
So we've been driving around towns. Wallaceburg...... the town where time stood still. We couldn't get out of there fast enough!!!!
We haven't found a place yet and decided to re-focus. So we went and looked at SUVs.
Think we found one. Tomorrow we are going to finish and look at 3 more. Then if we still like the one, we will go for it. Our car - as wonderful as it is - needs some work, and the rear camera is dead. After 8 yrs, you'd think I could still reverse. HA! I'll be glad to have a camera again.
We have looked at Ford - out, Jeep - on the used lot was a Alfa Romearo that I REALLY liked but was questionable, and the Trailhawk was nice. Then we looked at VWagon - no power, Nissan - nice, Subaru - great safety but I just don't feel comfortable in it, Hyuandi - walked out, just not it again (we have one), Volvo - cost, Mazda - eh, can't remember what else. Tomorrow is Mitsubishi, Honda and Toyota. We had gone to the Kia dealer but no one came to help us, so we walked out.
We decided to go to the other Kia dealer the next day - SHE was nice. And we looked at the Sportage. I LOVED it. I couldn't breathe as I wanted to buy it then and there. I was so sure. I never had that feeling when buying or looking at any car. I was just so sure all over. It looks like it will either be a dealer show room 2018 or new 2020. Both are the same price the 2018 has a bit more loaded.
Went to Dr Steve today. Jax is doing much better. He's allowed to go to daycare - but no playing. I had talked with the old place we took him and they can do this. He's going tomorrow. Will give him a pill before hand.
WW - continuing. Still not at it. Ok during the day but evening I end up eating. Sigh.
AH - still listening to the youtubes. Really have been helping. Like them. Create that $$ for the car!!!!
Guess that's it for the night.
Ta
I've been spending a lot of time for the last month listening to Abraham Hicks Youtube videos.
1. I found my change.
As you know, I've written often on wanting to change. Well I found it. I found HOW to change. I found HOW to have the life I've wanted.
2. Answers.
I love how AH states things in ways that I can actually use. I just keep listening over and over to the videos. I've learnt so far:
Change the story
Pivot
Go General
You're emotions show where you are
Get into the Vortex
Be Happy / Feel Positive
Focus on what you want
Have fun
Forget the Past
Contrast brings you to awareness of what you do want
You create your life and your experiences
One of the best is go general. I love that one. Basically it's a statement. I've done statements before, or affirmations. But they never seemed to align with me. Because.... I wasn't aligning with my inner being with those statements. Now that I understand to go general when I can't go specific - it's amazing.
Example:
Lately I've been reading and hearing about animals (mostly dogs) being hurt. Especially a lot with back problems - yeah, I'm worried still about Jax, so I know I'm creating that - and it's bringing more to me... because that's what I'm focusing on!
Well, stating something positive like - There is no cruelty. Not vibing right with me. I hope they get better/stop getting hurt - just brings more awareness of them, so that's not what I want. But making a GENERAL statement that I do believe:
Animals live / Animals are alive.. and happy.
THAT one I do believe! That one I can get light with. That one is one that I can focus on instead of that other stuff. That one brings me light and happiness. That is the one I want in my life. And from that, I can, if I want, go more direct - in time.
Listening to AH has brought me awareness of just being happy. It makes me aware that I am worth it, and I am allowed to be happy.
And yeah, I don't go into the buts or the what about, and why this....... I just don't focus on them. It's not denial. It's just not what I want to focus on. I want light and happiness. And I'm not going to try to explain or figure out the buts!
