He's so cute! Ok, to me he is. 🐶💖
Friday, December 30, 2016
Friday Ramble Part Deux
Wanted to get Jax his dinner and walk before it got dark. That and I hoped to get the shoveling done before dinner too. Which I did. I took a few photographs of Jax and his puppy dog.
He's so cute! Ok, to me he is. 🐶💖
He's so cute! Ok, to me he is. 🐶💖
Friday Ramble
I've been out of sorts lately. I'm on fire - and not in a good way. My RA has been flaring the last few days, and I'm in pain, on fire, and want to cry. I couldn't shovel yesterday - had to call Jason to help. Today I shoveled and at the rate this snow is coming down... looks like I will have to shovel again tonight.
I took some Prednisone yesterday. I'm burning on the edges now, would take more, but the pills were expired and the drug store I use is closed this week. At least the major fires have stopped. I got some sleep last night. I really feel the painful burning/fire at night when I'm sleeping. Guess that's because my body is stopped, compared to the movement during the day - right now just my left shoulder is burning. The pills also make me very, very hungry. Kicked me out of ketos yesterday. Very glad for those sticks - so helpful.
Yesteray had:
B - scrambled eggs with mushrooms and celery, 2 sausages, tea
3 thumbprints with nc pb and jam*
S - protein bar*
S - pepperitte*
L - ground chicken, asparagus, pasta, tea
S - pepperitte*
D - 1 lupin/cheese pancake with ground chicken, bok choy
1 lupin/cheese pancake with nc pb and jam*, tea
S - jello, protein bar*, hot shake*(?)
All those * are things I didn't really need. All allowable, but really too much. Most of my eating was tired and empty feeling hunger.
Today is better. So far:
B - 1/4 cup High fiber cereal, 1/2 cup almond milk
L - 4 Spinach bread, 3 with a bit of cream cheese salmon, 1 with bit of nc pb and jam, 2 hard boiled egg whites, coffee with caramel milk (Waldern's no carbs)
Planning for dinner - chicken, spinach, salad with dressing, tea and for snack either chicken or egg or soup.
Went shopping at Costco before the snows came. Got lots of chicken of course, and greens, and other household stuff. Cooked up 7 chicken breasts, making cauliflower soup and a cauli/broccoli soup. Got eggs - cooked some of those up too.
With this blizzard currently coming down looks like I will be getting more exercising. Oh, had to change the pills Dr B suggested for ones with a bit more 'up' - green tea extract in them. I'm just too down and tired. Though I know some of my tired is the flares, I just can't continue with being so wiped. LOOK, there's a break in the blizzard! The snow is lightly falling....at the moment.
For Christmas Jax got a stuffed dog that is twice his size. (among other toys of course) It's funny to watch him play with it. He grabs a leg, drags it, and shakes it. Have to keep him entertained!
I took some Prednisone yesterday. I'm burning on the edges now, would take more, but the pills were expired and the drug store I use is closed this week. At least the major fires have stopped. I got some sleep last night. I really feel the painful burning/fire at night when I'm sleeping. Guess that's because my body is stopped, compared to the movement during the day - right now just my left shoulder is burning. The pills also make me very, very hungry. Kicked me out of ketos yesterday. Very glad for those sticks - so helpful.
Yesteray had:
B - scrambled eggs with mushrooms and celery, 2 sausages, tea
3 thumbprints with nc pb and jam*
S - protein bar*
S - pepperitte*
L - ground chicken, asparagus, pasta, tea
S - pepperitte*
D - 1 lupin/cheese pancake with ground chicken, bok choy
1 lupin/cheese pancake with nc pb and jam*, tea
S - jello, protein bar*, hot shake*(?)
All those * are things I didn't really need. All allowable, but really too much. Most of my eating was tired and empty feeling hunger.
Today is better. So far:
B - 1/4 cup High fiber cereal, 1/2 cup almond milk
L - 4 Spinach bread, 3 with a bit of cream cheese salmon, 1 with bit of nc pb and jam, 2 hard boiled egg whites, coffee with caramel milk (Waldern's no carbs)
Planning for dinner - chicken, spinach, salad with dressing, tea and for snack either chicken or egg or soup.
Went shopping at Costco before the snows came. Got lots of chicken of course, and greens, and other household stuff. Cooked up 7 chicken breasts, making cauliflower soup and a cauli/broccoli soup. Got eggs - cooked some of those up too.
With this blizzard currently coming down looks like I will be getting more exercising. Oh, had to change the pills Dr B suggested for ones with a bit more 'up' - green tea extract in them. I'm just too down and tired. Though I know some of my tired is the flares, I just can't continue with being so wiped. LOOK, there's a break in the blizzard! The snow is lightly falling....at the moment.
For Christmas Jax got a stuffed dog that is twice his size. (among other toys of course) It's funny to watch him play with it. He grabs a leg, drags it, and shakes it. Have to keep him entertained!
Wednesday, December 28, 2016
Poon Day
Today was Poon Day. Went down to see how I was doing.... and we went for lunch too. But before I write on that. Here's a photo from Christmas Day at AJ's family. Thought it turned out well.
Usually I don't care for photos of me as I find they don't make me look too good, my eyes tend to look shut and my mouth/teeth too weird. This one was nice. AJ, of course, always looks good in photographs. Oh, when I was trying on clothes for dinners - I ended up having to pull out the old ones that I kept. They looked better on me... so I'm down in size, though just a bit. Most of my current pants are stretchy as I don't have hips to hold up pants. Was a nice feeling. And I was able to wear my wedding ring, at least for the day. By night my hands swell still.
The last few days I have been back on program. Suddenly it was quiet again with the foods/eating compared to those few days before Christmas. Went and got more 'greens' too. Feeling good.
At Poons.... the results are in.... they are......WATER! 5 pounds off, but all water, no fat. Still, Dr B is pleased. Especially since I did it over Christmas. I also told her my tiny tastes, and she was happy with them too. She thought I did very well over all. Even though it's water, it's 5 pounds. I am officially 21 pounds down! I am so happy with the results too. It also has made me optimistic and eager to continue. After Poon we went for lunch in Barrie - I had a steak sandwich, minus the bun, and ordered veggies, the waitress came back to advise me that the chef says the carrots are higher in carbs as they also have brown sugar glaze on them. I had, as a flunk, mentioned I'm low carb to the waitress who mentioned it to the chef. That was good of them, I switched to the salad with oil/vinegar. As a treat, I had a hava from Poon store, and a coffee with French Vanilla flavouring again from Poon store. Was very happy.
Dinner tonight is just some pasta with cream cheese, 2 eggs, and a pepperette (again from the store). Breakfast was a shake, and at Poon's I had a bar - after weigh in of course!
Onward and downward!!! 😋👇
Sunday, December 25, 2016
Aftermas
Christmas visiting etc is OVER for this year. Realized I was stressing a bit before because, well because I had dreams of being slimmer/less weight then I am, and I wasn't. Also, worried I think over the food, even though I knew I wasn't going to cheat. Though I did - I tried a bacon wrapped chestnut, and 1/4 of a fork (if that, even less) of lemon-lime cheese cake. Those things don't bother me. I did binge a bit a few days before, and at AJ's family dinner on foods that are allowable for me. Like asparagus, meat, bit of cheese and my treats. Obviously I still deal with issues via foods. THAT was told to me a while ago that that was the way I am, and that it would probably never change too much. Overall I'm glad with the way I handled things for Christmas. I wasn't in ketos on the 23rd when I checked, and I was only unofficially down 2 pounds. Will have to check to see if I'm in ketos and where m unofficial weight is, I have an appointment with Dr Poon on Dec 28th.
There was underlying drama going on at my family's dinner. My sister told me some info that was happening. And there was the ongoing untalked about issue with my cousin's family. I just stepped back and reminded myself - not my pony show. AJ's family.... nothing but pleasant and friendly, no surprise at either place. Lots of compliments from AJ's family on my new short hair cut - they liked it. I still like it.
Funny how even though Christmas for the last few years with AJ has been peaceful and loving and pleasant....still has me at times in the gripe of childhood feelings and fears Christmas. I know it's the childhood memories that I long to avoid and yet they linger - even with years of therapy, even with total understanding of them/what happened, even with knowing one Christmas is not the memories of childhood Christmas, even with the joys of being with AJ and good Christmases...... I think this year it was the trigger of my change in eating and food that caused Christmas pasts to come up. Hence the deep desire to just stay home and avoid any place with festivities, eating and food. I didn't want to look at how I looked or what I ate. I still feel my foods overall were / are peaceful and my choices are content and peaceful - so that means, it was just the memories I was struggling with I think. I will have to meditate on this a bit. See what comes up.
Stress over food at these things is still going on as I'm learning. I know this, but it still was ... not really a challenge, more new? untested? The desserts at AJ's family was tricky as the women make delicious treats. I didn't have any of it!! I knew it wasn't what I wanted. I want my new life decision more - even if I binged somewhat on my foods. That I think is not dealing with the emptiness within self. That place where fear of ?? and loneliness ?? still surfaces at times. Those feelings that I didn't want to deal with at this time. Just because I don't want to deal with them, doesn't mean they aren't there or coming up. They will show up again I'm sure. Now hopefully that emptiness that I've been binging on instead will subside for a time and I can refocus on weight loss and eating healthier. Not so many treats! Maybe in the meantime I can look into those feelings of emptiness etc and heal them. It's a journey, it's my life.
There was underlying drama going on at my family's dinner. My sister told me some info that was happening. And there was the ongoing untalked about issue with my cousin's family. I just stepped back and reminded myself - not my pony show. AJ's family.... nothing but pleasant and friendly, no surprise at either place. Lots of compliments from AJ's family on my new short hair cut - they liked it. I still like it.
Funny how even though Christmas for the last few years with AJ has been peaceful and loving and pleasant....still has me at times in the gripe of childhood feelings and fears Christmas. I know it's the childhood memories that I long to avoid and yet they linger - even with years of therapy, even with total understanding of them/what happened, even with knowing one Christmas is not the memories of childhood Christmas, even with the joys of being with AJ and good Christmases...... I think this year it was the trigger of my change in eating and food that caused Christmas pasts to come up. Hence the deep desire to just stay home and avoid any place with festivities, eating and food. I didn't want to look at how I looked or what I ate. I still feel my foods overall were / are peaceful and my choices are content and peaceful - so that means, it was just the memories I was struggling with I think. I will have to meditate on this a bit. See what comes up.
Stress over food at these things is still going on as I'm learning. I know this, but it still was ... not really a challenge, more new? untested? The desserts at AJ's family was tricky as the women make delicious treats. I didn't have any of it!! I knew it wasn't what I wanted. I want my new life decision more - even if I binged somewhat on my foods. That I think is not dealing with the emptiness within self. That place where fear of ?? and loneliness ?? still surfaces at times. Those feelings that I didn't want to deal with at this time. Just because I don't want to deal with them, doesn't mean they aren't there or coming up. They will show up again I'm sure. Now hopefully that emptiness that I've been binging on instead will subside for a time and I can refocus on weight loss and eating healthier. Not so many treats! Maybe in the meantime I can look into those feelings of emptiness etc and heal them. It's a journey, it's my life.
Friday, December 23, 2016
Quiet Drama Season
Almost Christmas time, tomorrow is Eve, and then Day. Looks like there will be a bit of snow tomorrow morning but then it will be good for both days. So that means driving to my cousin's place for Eve, and AJ's family for Day. Best is the Eve, not that it's my family but because Jax can come with. AJ's family is 46 this year - so Jax is not invited. It's an hour drive there and then another hour drive home. Jax should be fine, he's young, has good 'hold', and we won't be gone for long.
I have my treats to bring with me to both places, and feel I have no desire to go off plan. Going off is the worse idea - at least for me. I would have such a horrible time then getting back on track if I did. Besides, I know this is a life change - one that I want to do. I find that I am doing well and peaceful on it.
Speaking of which... I see a social worker, but I also every once in a while see another worker. She works more in the energy realm. I saw her the other day and talked about my feelings of being down but fine. She explained that what was going on with me was I was bored. Just plain bored, and that was normal. I wasn't having drama in my life. I wasn't FEEDING the drama, I wasn't creating any drama either. My food is very peaceful, I am good with it, and not feeling stressed over my choices. It's what I have longed for, for so long. Doesn't mean I don't think every once in a while of wanting a something - but really, most 'somethings' I can create and have. My life doesn't have any drama (at least at the moment) and that's again what I want. I just desire a peaceful, calm, light, enjoyable life. One where food doesn't control my life. What a graceful Christmas gift.
So being bored means - life is normal. Hum. She laughed and said I could create drama if I wanted..... NO, I don't want it. I'll take the boring normal. It's something I've never had most of my life, so this is very new and different. I'm guessing in time I will find a peaceful way thru and start doing that which I'm drawn to do. She said at the moment just watch the drama around, and if I just want to sit and stare at a tree - then do it. I shall be at family and watch the drama! ha ha ha. Actually I don't see either family having much drama - neither really have it, they all get along, even the 46!
Tonight we have some neighbours over for dinner. Simply shepperd's pie, green bean salad, peppers and jello with berries. No mashed potatoes - mashed cauliflower.
Wishing all a quiet, peaceful, drama-free Christmas Season. Til after Christmas.
Ta
I have my treats to bring with me to both places, and feel I have no desire to go off plan. Going off is the worse idea - at least for me. I would have such a horrible time then getting back on track if I did. Besides, I know this is a life change - one that I want to do. I find that I am doing well and peaceful on it.
Speaking of which... I see a social worker, but I also every once in a while see another worker. She works more in the energy realm. I saw her the other day and talked about my feelings of being down but fine. She explained that what was going on with me was I was bored. Just plain bored, and that was normal. I wasn't having drama in my life. I wasn't FEEDING the drama, I wasn't creating any drama either. My food is very peaceful, I am good with it, and not feeling stressed over my choices. It's what I have longed for, for so long. Doesn't mean I don't think every once in a while of wanting a something - but really, most 'somethings' I can create and have. My life doesn't have any drama (at least at the moment) and that's again what I want. I just desire a peaceful, calm, light, enjoyable life. One where food doesn't control my life. What a graceful Christmas gift.
So being bored means - life is normal. Hum. She laughed and said I could create drama if I wanted..... NO, I don't want it. I'll take the boring normal. It's something I've never had most of my life, so this is very new and different. I'm guessing in time I will find a peaceful way thru and start doing that which I'm drawn to do. She said at the moment just watch the drama around, and if I just want to sit and stare at a tree - then do it. I shall be at family and watch the drama! ha ha ha. Actually I don't see either family having much drama - neither really have it, they all get along, even the 46!
Tonight we have some neighbours over for dinner. Simply shepperd's pie, green bean salad, peppers and jello with berries. No mashed potatoes - mashed cauliflower.
Wishing all a quiet, peaceful, drama-free Christmas Season. Til after Christmas.
Ta
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
Bake Off
I did it. I got the baking done. Got up early, had flax/chia/hemp/protein powder mixed with hot water and a bit of almond milk for breakfast, and tea. Then read my emails, and got ready. Had my recipes planned out, started at 10am. Worked until 3pm with all the baking.
Also had lunch between too. Turkey sausage, stemmed cabbage, kale microgreens and tea.
Made baby finger almond prints. (instead of thumb prints as they were smaller, and minus the jam - wanted to freeze some, will add the jam as I have them), then Protein Bread, Spinach Bread, Lupin Muffins. Bottom one is lunch.
After lunch:
Hard Boiled Eggs, Pancakes (that tiny, tiny black dot is AJ's pancake.... he was so thrilled when I told him that's what he got! ha ha), Flax/chia Breakfast bars, and lastly Forgotten Cookies - aka Meringues - Caramel Flavour.
That's me working away!
Best thing that happened - all what I made turned out delicious!!! A lot of times things sound good, but once I make them, I don't like the taste. Not the case with these things. I was so pleased with the results. Will have to make these things again.
After all this, I need a rest.... but it was time to walk Jax, and I had an appointment to go to at 630pm. More on that another time. I'm a happy baker.
Also had lunch between too. Turkey sausage, stemmed cabbage, kale microgreens and tea.
Made baby finger almond prints. (instead of thumb prints as they were smaller, and minus the jam - wanted to freeze some, will add the jam as I have them), then Protein Bread, Spinach Bread, Lupin Muffins. Bottom one is lunch.
After lunch:
Hard Boiled Eggs, Pancakes (that tiny, tiny black dot is AJ's pancake.... he was so thrilled when I told him that's what he got! ha ha), Flax/chia Breakfast bars, and lastly Forgotten Cookies - aka Meringues - Caramel Flavour.
That's me working away!
Best thing that happened - all what I made turned out delicious!!! A lot of times things sound good, but once I make them, I don't like the taste. Not the case with these things. I was so pleased with the results. Will have to make these things again.
After all this, I need a rest.... but it was time to walk Jax, and I had an appointment to go to at 630pm. More on that another time. I'm a happy baker.
Monday, December 19, 2016
Monday's Joys
I'm feeling better. I think it was the prescription pills I was on for my face (given to me by my family doctor for acne. I'm 53 and I get pimples! ha ha). My face has cleared up though, so that's good. Hopefully I won't have to go on them again.
I never did get to the baking yesterday.....3 snow shovelings and a drive in a blizzard to get a coffee and safflower seeds! I'm fed up with those birds eating everything. They hate safflower seeds. I put it out and after a few weeks they usually are gone for a long while. Was actually very busy yesterday. Energy is up too. Shoveling, cleaning, changing the bedding, laundry, driving in a blizzard, cooked dinner, looked up recipes (favorite peaceful hobby) ... I wonder if I will be able to get exercising into these days too.
Those birds have disappeared this afternoon... like family when there's no food and drink left. The safflower seeds are working their magic.
This morning we both had physio. New appointment. Spent the time doing intake - almost 1 hour, only on my shoulders/neck issues - next intake on my hips/legs issues. Then work on the plan decided. Will start first week on January 2017. AJ gets to work on his left shoulder and left leg.
Breakfast was a quick shake. Lunch - because I had to go back for another appointment with the social worker, was a protein bar and then because I was still hungry some miracle noodles and a scoop of salmon cream cheese, tea. Dinner was stemmed cabbage, Sobey's chicken, bit of cauliflower, jello and tea. Snack before bed - probably a heated protein drink.
Tomorrow - going to aim for that baking again. Have no plans to go anywhere until 4pm, and there's suppose to be no snow. Wish me luck!
I never did get to the baking yesterday.....3 snow shovelings and a drive in a blizzard to get a coffee and safflower seeds! I'm fed up with those birds eating everything. They hate safflower seeds. I put it out and after a few weeks they usually are gone for a long while. Was actually very busy yesterday. Energy is up too. Shoveling, cleaning, changing the bedding, laundry, driving in a blizzard, cooked dinner, looked up recipes (favorite peaceful hobby) ... I wonder if I will be able to get exercising into these days too.
Those birds have disappeared this afternoon... like family when there's no food and drink left. The safflower seeds are working their magic.
This morning we both had physio. New appointment. Spent the time doing intake - almost 1 hour, only on my shoulders/neck issues - next intake on my hips/legs issues. Then work on the plan decided. Will start first week on January 2017. AJ gets to work on his left shoulder and left leg.
Breakfast was a quick shake. Lunch - because I had to go back for another appointment with the social worker, was a protein bar and then because I was still hungry some miracle noodles and a scoop of salmon cream cheese, tea. Dinner was stemmed cabbage, Sobey's chicken, bit of cauliflower, jello and tea. Snack before bed - probably a heated protein drink.
Tomorrow - going to aim for that baking again. Have no plans to go anywhere until 4pm, and there's suppose to be no snow. Wish me luck!
Saturday, December 17, 2016
Spicy
Found a recipe for '''chili''. Made with stewing beef and ground beef. Turned out well - per AJ. He enjoyed it. Unfortunately it's not for me. 😱 Too much cayenne. But then again, any cayenne is usually too much for me. I tried to keep it very light, guess it didn't happen. I'm one who more and more just like plan favour. I do want favour, but just can't take the spicy anymore. Good thing AJ loves spicy.
So, for dinner I had left over drumsticks and stemmed cabbage. Also made a chia/flax muffin and from the ONS store I found No Carb Beanit peanut butter - delicious, with a bit of jam. Jello and tea for the ending.
Breakfast today to a warmed up pancake (have to make more of them, excellent to keep in the freezer), some low fat turkey bacon, hot 'french vanilla' protein shake and tea. Was hungry after 1 hour of shoveling all that snow. Lunch was chia muffin (Beanit PB and Jam added), tea and 'split pea' soup.
Tomorrow for breakfast - planning on hot cereal of chia/flax. Found a recipe for it, will try it out.
As you can guess, I'm working on that fiber plan! And trying to remember the water.... Not too much cheese lately. That's good. I found a recipe for no guilt brownies - basically with egg whites. Haven't decided if I will make it yet. Though the recipe for meringue seems ok. I'm really working at keeping things on the Phase 1 plan. Using that more then making Phase 2 meals / recipes.
Considering it was to snow all day, I just needed to shovel this morning. Thankfully it was nice and sunny the rest of the day. There has been a bit of flakes coming down tonight - they say we might get more tomorrow. I'm for the snow skipping us. That way I can really focus on cooking / baking instead. Seems when I need to shovel, it just wipes me out for hours and I just don't have the energy (or mood) to cook a lot. The vitamins Dr B suggested are helping, just not all that much. I do get things like shoveling and house cleaning done, just not the cooking. My shoulders are painful from the shoveling - will need to get a massage to help that. Legs still ache, though that's where I think the vitamins are helping the most, they aren't as bad as they were before. At least I'm not crying over the pain anymore.
Spent some time wrapping AJ's presents. Jax and the cats don't get their presents wrapped. Jax was very interested in what I was hiding in my hands. Hence his stocking is higher up. ha ha.
Plan tomorrow - bake!
So, for dinner I had left over drumsticks and stemmed cabbage. Also made a chia/flax muffin and from the ONS store I found No Carb Beanit peanut butter - delicious, with a bit of jam. Jello and tea for the ending.
Breakfast today to a warmed up pancake (have to make more of them, excellent to keep in the freezer), some low fat turkey bacon, hot 'french vanilla' protein shake and tea. Was hungry after 1 hour of shoveling all that snow. Lunch was chia muffin (Beanit PB and Jam added), tea and 'split pea' soup.
Tomorrow for breakfast - planning on hot cereal of chia/flax. Found a recipe for it, will try it out.
As you can guess, I'm working on that fiber plan! And trying to remember the water.... Not too much cheese lately. That's good. I found a recipe for no guilt brownies - basically with egg whites. Haven't decided if I will make it yet. Though the recipe for meringue seems ok. I'm really working at keeping things on the Phase 1 plan. Using that more then making Phase 2 meals / recipes.
Considering it was to snow all day, I just needed to shovel this morning. Thankfully it was nice and sunny the rest of the day. There has been a bit of flakes coming down tonight - they say we might get more tomorrow. I'm for the snow skipping us. That way I can really focus on cooking / baking instead. Seems when I need to shovel, it just wipes me out for hours and I just don't have the energy (or mood) to cook a lot. The vitamins Dr B suggested are helping, just not all that much. I do get things like shoveling and house cleaning done, just not the cooking. My shoulders are painful from the shoveling - will need to get a massage to help that. Legs still ache, though that's where I think the vitamins are helping the most, they aren't as bad as they were before. At least I'm not crying over the pain anymore.
Spent some time wrapping AJ's presents. Jax and the cats don't get their presents wrapped. Jax was very interested in what I was hiding in my hands. Hence his stocking is higher up. ha ha.
Plan tomorrow - bake!
Thursday, December 15, 2016
No More!
It's only December 15, 2016 and I'm finished with all this shoveling! Was out 3 times so far today - after this going out again for another round. Apparently Friday and Saturday are snow again too. You'd think I'd lose weight with all this shoveling. Especially since I've stopped the cheese! Ha ha. Well, not stopped cheese, just eased up on it.
Thought too I was nuts. At 745am this morning, it was clear, so I quickly shoveled out the car etc, got showered, had egg whites, chia muffin, turkey bacon for breakfast (AJ made it, the wonderful hubby he is) and ran out the door as snow started again - had to have blood work, and thought I'd go to art group. As I drove to the lab, the snow got worse. Thankfully I had an appointment for the lab, so I was in and out fast. Decided to skip art group, went to Wal-Mart instead. Really needed a warm hat, and a bit of food. Found lots of celery for $1.00, among other things. And a furry, warm red hat.
It was a blizzard as I made my way to the gas station and home. Basically guessed where the road was. Thankfully made it safely home, to shovel again.
Had a protein bar. Later lunch was broccoli slaw with some turkey slices. Out to shovel again.
Dinner tonight is Taco salad. Looking forward to that (after shoveling).
Those starlings (birds) have found the feeders again. I thought they went south for the winter. Going to need to get some safflower seeds I guess. They don't like those.
So, I have decided - No More Starlings (or blackbirds) at the feeders. And No More Snow for the rest of the winter season. Yeah, I don't think it will happen either.
Boy are my shoulders and arms sore. Remember lift with the knees.
Thought too I was nuts. At 745am this morning, it was clear, so I quickly shoveled out the car etc, got showered, had egg whites, chia muffin, turkey bacon for breakfast (AJ made it, the wonderful hubby he is) and ran out the door as snow started again - had to have blood work, and thought I'd go to art group. As I drove to the lab, the snow got worse. Thankfully I had an appointment for the lab, so I was in and out fast. Decided to skip art group, went to Wal-Mart instead. Really needed a warm hat, and a bit of food. Found lots of celery for $1.00, among other things. And a furry, warm red hat.
It was a blizzard as I made my way to the gas station and home. Basically guessed where the road was. Thankfully made it safely home, to shovel again.
Had a protein bar. Later lunch was broccoli slaw with some turkey slices. Out to shovel again.
Dinner tonight is Taco salad. Looking forward to that (after shoveling).
Those starlings (birds) have found the feeders again. I thought they went south for the winter. Going to need to get some safflower seeds I guess. They don't like those.
So, I have decided - No More Starlings (or blackbirds) at the feeders. And No More Snow for the rest of the winter season. Yeah, I don't think it will happen either.
Boy are my shoulders and arms sore. Remember lift with the knees.
Wednesday, December 14, 2016
Cheese Sins
I have a confession.... apparently I'm having too much cheese. I saw Dr B yesterday at Dr Poon's. I AM down 2.3 pounds (2 lbs of fat). After discussing the foods, we figured it is the cheese that's holding me back. Then again, I was eating cheese basically 2-3 times a day, pretty much every day. The eggs / egg whites are fine. I am to also to add more fiber (having trouble getting enough of that), more water, and less salt.
Dr B had more time to talk today, so that was good. I got a better understanding (hence less cheese, and my dairy issues) and plan for working at weight loss. I also actually had time to talk to her about feeling down. She asked about my energy level (blah, down too). She suggested some pills that they sell to help. I'm open to trying them. Especially if they will help me feel better. They mostly are vitamins (b6, b12, mag, potassium, folic acid, cq10). Looking forward to that helping with the wanting / doing exercising. Might even help my leg pains?
We (AJ and I) went shopping at Walmart after. Walmart up here is more peaceful then down in Thornhill. Afterwards we went for lunch at Wendy's. Had a bunless burger and bunless chicken. To be fair - I did have about 5 fries from AJ, and a sip of his Iced Tea. After we had Tea from Tim's and I had a seasame halva from the Poon store. AJ had a muffin. Yeah, I was very hungry. Only had a slice of protein bread with a bit of sf jam and tea for breakfast. Dinner last night was left over casserole (rest went into the freezer) and broccoli - no salt.
I got a high fiber hot cereal from the Poon store for breakfast today, with 2 breakfast sausages (Poon again). Lunch - 'split pea' soup and a small protein bar. Dinner - omelette with broccoli and chia (no cheese!) and leftover green bean salad. Maybe a hot protein drink instead of tea.
Going to make some chia/flax muffins tomorrow and maybe some flax wraps. All of that is going to require me to drink more water.
Ahh, my cheese sins are over!
Dr B had more time to talk today, so that was good. I got a better understanding (hence less cheese, and my dairy issues) and plan for working at weight loss. I also actually had time to talk to her about feeling down. She asked about my energy level (blah, down too). She suggested some pills that they sell to help. I'm open to trying them. Especially if they will help me feel better. They mostly are vitamins (b6, b12, mag, potassium, folic acid, cq10). Looking forward to that helping with the wanting / doing exercising. Might even help my leg pains?
We (AJ and I) went shopping at Walmart after. Walmart up here is more peaceful then down in Thornhill. Afterwards we went for lunch at Wendy's. Had a bunless burger and bunless chicken. To be fair - I did have about 5 fries from AJ, and a sip of his Iced Tea. After we had Tea from Tim's and I had a seasame halva from the Poon store. AJ had a muffin. Yeah, I was very hungry. Only had a slice of protein bread with a bit of sf jam and tea for breakfast. Dinner last night was left over casserole (rest went into the freezer) and broccoli - no salt.
I got a high fiber hot cereal from the Poon store for breakfast today, with 2 breakfast sausages (Poon again). Lunch - 'split pea' soup and a small protein bar. Dinner - omelette with broccoli and chia (no cheese!) and leftover green bean salad. Maybe a hot protein drink instead of tea.
Going to make some chia/flax muffins tomorrow and maybe some flax wraps. All of that is going to require me to drink more water.
Ahh, my cheese sins are over!
Monday, December 12, 2016
Monday's Rambles
The weekend was busy.....though it's not like there was much happening. Mostly a lot of SNOW! Ugh. Guess who gets to shovel. And shovel, and shovel. I've had enough of the shoveling already. And it's only December. The weather gets to me too, last few weeks I've been stiff and struggling with walking Jax. It's like my body is lead - so hard to move. There's no lightness in it. By night time my right leg is so painful I could cry. Sometimes walking Jax, I wonder how I'm going to get home because of being so sore and stiff. The shoveling doesn't help. Today I fell twice and slipped numerous times walking Jax. I don't even want to eat chocolate because it won't stop the pain.
Speaking of eating - I've been doing well. I got keto sticks, I'm monitoring and I'm good in ketos. Hopefully the weight loss will show too. I'm still on plan. On Saturday we went to my mothers - she's well and active as ever - I brought an egg pancake, had some chicken, cheese, some pork and a few veggies available. She never noticed my short hair, or any weight loss on me - guess in a way that's better as I don't have to explain anything.
Yesterday we had company for dinner. Made a casserole - chicken, turkey sausage, mushrooms, cauliflower and I added spinach. Also, a green bean salad, and broccoli, for dessert - jello with a few blackberries. Today I had 2 spoons of last night's dinner before shoveling, then an omelette for breakfast, and a bar for lunch - just didn't have it in me to eat anything else. Tonight for dinner (not last night's dinner again, think I will freeze that) but my favorite famous low carb 'split pea' soup. I found the recipe years ago, and still make it as it's so good. Especially since when we were in Pickering I remembered Bruno's Meats and thought my chances of getting a smoked turkey thigh would be good. It was!!! I got two. The best way to make the recipe is to have smoked turkey - which, surprisingly is very hard to find (at least around here). I'm making it between writing this. Looking so forward for it tonight......maybe I will make some protein bread to go along with it. Oh, excellent idea.
Think I hurt my right foot and hip more with that last fall. I feel like my foot is swelling a bit. As it is I'm almost waddling when I walk already with the pain of that right leg on a good day.
Yeah, I'm not too up today. Noticed lately I'm not happy? joyful? excited? light? I not sure what, I am mostly content. I'm happy with my choices and decision of weight loss, my way of doing it, my foods, my family, my home, basically my health. I'm not depressed, I guess just a bit down. For no reason that I can relate to. Might be the season - not enough light outside? Christmas? Snow? I don't have the drive to exercise YET. Though I clean the house, walk Jax, and shovel, shovel, shovel. Maybe not enough dopamine hits. AJ says it's looking like snow/not good driving at Christmas Eve or Day. That means not seeing my family or his this Christmas if I don't drive. Sobey's had a turkey on sale last week - looks like I'll make that for us. Today that sounds like the best idea.
Talked with Wendy today - she was a patient at RH when I was there, different program though. Nice woman, enjoyed her company. Plan to visit her in the summer, she lives near St Jacob's Market. I thought we could go - take Jax with - see her/her husband, go to the market and stay overnight at a hotel. Make it a mini vacation. Would be nice. Something to look forward to.
Tomorrow we go to Dr Poon. Even though I know I've been eating on plan, and in ketos - I am nervous. Optimistic that there will be a weight loss. If not, well, I will continue working on it. Hope there's no snow to shovel.
Think that's about all my tired, sore, soul has to write today. Off to make that protein bread before it gets too late. Will let you know what happens tomorrow in a day or so.
Speaking of eating - I've been doing well. I got keto sticks, I'm monitoring and I'm good in ketos. Hopefully the weight loss will show too. I'm still on plan. On Saturday we went to my mothers - she's well and active as ever - I brought an egg pancake, had some chicken, cheese, some pork and a few veggies available. She never noticed my short hair, or any weight loss on me - guess in a way that's better as I don't have to explain anything.
Yesterday we had company for dinner. Made a casserole - chicken, turkey sausage, mushrooms, cauliflower and I added spinach. Also, a green bean salad, and broccoli, for dessert - jello with a few blackberries. Today I had 2 spoons of last night's dinner before shoveling, then an omelette for breakfast, and a bar for lunch - just didn't have it in me to eat anything else. Tonight for dinner (not last night's dinner again, think I will freeze that) but my favorite famous low carb 'split pea' soup. I found the recipe years ago, and still make it as it's so good. Especially since when we were in Pickering I remembered Bruno's Meats and thought my chances of getting a smoked turkey thigh would be good. It was!!! I got two. The best way to make the recipe is to have smoked turkey - which, surprisingly is very hard to find (at least around here). I'm making it between writing this. Looking so forward for it tonight......maybe I will make some protein bread to go along with it. Oh, excellent idea.
Think I hurt my right foot and hip more with that last fall. I feel like my foot is swelling a bit. As it is I'm almost waddling when I walk already with the pain of that right leg on a good day.
Yeah, I'm not too up today. Noticed lately I'm not happy? joyful? excited? light? I not sure what, I am mostly content. I'm happy with my choices and decision of weight loss, my way of doing it, my foods, my family, my home, basically my health. I'm not depressed, I guess just a bit down. For no reason that I can relate to. Might be the season - not enough light outside? Christmas? Snow? I don't have the drive to exercise YET. Though I clean the house, walk Jax, and shovel, shovel, shovel. Maybe not enough dopamine hits. AJ says it's looking like snow/not good driving at Christmas Eve or Day. That means not seeing my family or his this Christmas if I don't drive. Sobey's had a turkey on sale last week - looks like I'll make that for us. Today that sounds like the best idea.
Talked with Wendy today - she was a patient at RH when I was there, different program though. Nice woman, enjoyed her company. Plan to visit her in the summer, she lives near St Jacob's Market. I thought we could go - take Jax with - see her/her husband, go to the market and stay overnight at a hotel. Make it a mini vacation. Would be nice. Something to look forward to.
Tomorrow we go to Dr Poon. Even though I know I've been eating on plan, and in ketos - I am nervous. Optimistic that there will be a weight loss. If not, well, I will continue working on it. Hope there's no snow to shovel.
Think that's about all my tired, sore, soul has to write today. Off to make that protein bread before it gets too late. Will let you know what happens tomorrow in a day or so.
Thursday, December 8, 2016
A Skulk
I may be a Vixen, but I'm not in a skulk (or a leash.... oh, that's kinky)! ha ha ha
The wonderful world of Google says a group of foxes is a skulk or a leash. AJ and I were talking of foxes because we have many running around the Cove here this fall/winter. Actually lately I haven't seen any - which apparently works for me and Jax!!
There are fox tales going around. AJ came back from a meeting where a woman was saying her granddaughter (about 4-6 yrs) was at the front door screaming because a fox was at the door. The woman went to the door, saw the fox going around the house, she went to the back patio door, saw the fox, and it went to the front door again! It wanted to get in.
Other one, my friend Joanne was walking Teddy and Chole (both Havanese and Teddy is half brother with my Jax). She turned around and the fox was following her and the little dogs. She stamped her foot, tossed a stick, it still wouldn't back off. Then a person in her car came up and honked the car horn until it left - Joanne said she was almost home, and the car woman followed her to make sure they got home safely.
So I'm now walking, and taking Jax out carrying an air horn. I hope to never run into a fox! Thing is, there was a fox coming around our bird feeder for quite a few weeks. I even was out there one day with Jax when it sat and looked at us. I didn't think much of it as Jax was on the deck locked safely there with me. The one neighbour has a big boxer - rarely out and now a new neighbour moved in on the other side of us...with a big golden lab. So Jax is between two big dogs. I wonder if that's helping - haven't seen the fox since the new neighbour moved in. Or they are hibernating.
Yesterday I started back on the eggs. Made up pancakes, waffles, muffins to freeze. Had grill cheese for dinner (waffles with cheese in the middle) added lettuce and ketchup in it too. Breakfast was an omelette, and Lunch was a grill cheese too.
Today:
Breakfast - shake with hemp seeds
Lunch - cabbage salad and chicken and egg muffin
Dinner - salmon, green beans, broccolinie..... and just wanted something - jello.
Tea was in all that too.
Tomorrow will have more eggs again. Not doing the egg fast per sec, more increasing the eggs.
Snow has started tonight. There's a snow storm coming tonight / tomorrow. I hope it will be cleared by Saturday morning as we plan to see my mother.
The wonderful world of Google says a group of foxes is a skulk or a leash. AJ and I were talking of foxes because we have many running around the Cove here this fall/winter. Actually lately I haven't seen any - which apparently works for me and Jax!!
There are fox tales going around. AJ came back from a meeting where a woman was saying her granddaughter (about 4-6 yrs) was at the front door screaming because a fox was at the door. The woman went to the door, saw the fox going around the house, she went to the back patio door, saw the fox, and it went to the front door again! It wanted to get in.
Other one, my friend Joanne was walking Teddy and Chole (both Havanese and Teddy is half brother with my Jax). She turned around and the fox was following her and the little dogs. She stamped her foot, tossed a stick, it still wouldn't back off. Then a person in her car came up and honked the car horn until it left - Joanne said she was almost home, and the car woman followed her to make sure they got home safely.
So I'm now walking, and taking Jax out carrying an air horn. I hope to never run into a fox! Thing is, there was a fox coming around our bird feeder for quite a few weeks. I even was out there one day with Jax when it sat and looked at us. I didn't think much of it as Jax was on the deck locked safely there with me. The one neighbour has a big boxer - rarely out and now a new neighbour moved in on the other side of us...with a big golden lab. So Jax is between two big dogs. I wonder if that's helping - haven't seen the fox since the new neighbour moved in. Or they are hibernating.
Yesterday I started back on the eggs. Made up pancakes, waffles, muffins to freeze. Had grill cheese for dinner (waffles with cheese in the middle) added lettuce and ketchup in it too. Breakfast was an omelette, and Lunch was a grill cheese too.
Today:
Breakfast - shake with hemp seeds
Lunch - cabbage salad and chicken and egg muffin
Dinner - salmon, green beans, broccolinie..... and just wanted something - jello.
Tea was in all that too.
Tomorrow will have more eggs again. Not doing the egg fast per sec, more increasing the eggs.
Snow has started tonight. There's a snow storm coming tonight / tomorrow. I hope it will be cleared by Saturday morning as we plan to see my mother.
Tuesday, December 6, 2016
On The Road Again
Cars.... what a blessing. A few months ago we needed to bring our car in because of the service recall. We decided to go to where we bought it which is close to my mother's place - thought it was a good idea. Called them, confirmed it would take 4 hours, including oil change, tire change. Booked for 1030am, by 1230pm they called and said the car wasn't in yet. Kinda blew at them. We got the car at 2pm - advising us that they ''needed to order the service recall part''. What??? We booked weeks ahead so it could be done.
Anyway, we agreed and yesterday we brought the car down again - even though mom wasn't going to be home. Yeah, she went partying. We got there at 1030am and I clearly stated we needed the car at 230pm as it took us 2 hours to get back home. We had to pick up Jax at 5pm. Service man offered us a rental car.... yes, that would work especially since AJ uses a walker. I asked for new wipers too.
We went for lunch - Moxies. Excellent! I had the Lettuce Bun Burger and veggies. Was delicious, so happy for my decision to go there. Then to the mall, basically walked around, found a small gift for AJ. By 200pm we were ready, and went back to the dealer...... Yup. He looked at me, told me the car hadn't even been brought in, it wouldn't be ready until later then next day, which was why he gave us the rental. REALLY! After a bit of blasting on our part, and wanting the wipers free, they found two techs to work on the car, but still would be 2 hours. Too late to pick up Jax. Too long a drive. We decided we would stay at a hotel and they promised us the car in the morning.
I had 1/2 protein bar at Tim's as we discussed our options. Had the other half later that night. We decided on Holiday Express Inn in Whitby - they had a room. We picked up 1/4 chicken and kale salad from Superstore. Realized when we were in the room, that this was the hotel where we spent our night after our wedding. And again, it was a great hotel. Offered us all the stuff we needed at the last mintue - toothpaste, shaving cream, razor etc.
Breakfast included was 2 spoons of egg, 1 hardboiled egg, 1 bacon strip, tea. (for me). Got our car, they tried to charge us for the wipers. Got on the road early. We needed to get back up to Barrie as the funeral for our friend Charles was this morning. We got back for the reception. They did have his ashes there, so we got to say goodbye too.
I could have eaten all those cookies. It hit me hard that I was never going to see him again, hug him again, laugh with him again. I started crying, especially when I hugged Anne. I didn't want to deal with the uncomfortable emotions. I had taken 2 eggs with me from breakfast, and had a few veggies. That helped. I did know too that I choose not to eat those foods.
Jax was happy when we picked him up. He's spent most of the afternoon/evening sleeping. Thankfully our neighbour had come over to take care of our cats. I was very pleased with my choices of foods, even though I used acceptable protein bars, and the foods had a lot of salt. I didn't eat things that weren't acceptable. For me though, the bars are too much - as in, they kick me out of keto. Still a blessing to have for emergencies. Showed that I was able to make it thru unplanned meals/stays etc. Glad I'm home, and tomorrow start back on my egg plan. Not really the fast, just more eggs like the first week. I got keto sticks too to help me see where I am on the carbs. I imagine I'm up in weight, BUT the blessing is - I stayed on track! Other times, something like that would have given me the excuse to just eat, or skip until getting home. I'm pleased with my choices and now know keeping emergency supplies in my purse is a good idea. Need to remember too - this is a life change for me, and things happen - can I stay on track? If so, the weight will do what it does, and I can be happy that I know my decisions are wise.
As for the car...... next time there is a service recall... it's going to be easier to just buy a new car! ha ha ha 😃🚙
Anyway, we agreed and yesterday we brought the car down again - even though mom wasn't going to be home. Yeah, she went partying. We got there at 1030am and I clearly stated we needed the car at 230pm as it took us 2 hours to get back home. We had to pick up Jax at 5pm. Service man offered us a rental car.... yes, that would work especially since AJ uses a walker. I asked for new wipers too.
We went for lunch - Moxies. Excellent! I had the Lettuce Bun Burger and veggies. Was delicious, so happy for my decision to go there. Then to the mall, basically walked around, found a small gift for AJ. By 200pm we were ready, and went back to the dealer...... Yup. He looked at me, told me the car hadn't even been brought in, it wouldn't be ready until later then next day, which was why he gave us the rental. REALLY! After a bit of blasting on our part, and wanting the wipers free, they found two techs to work on the car, but still would be 2 hours. Too late to pick up Jax. Too long a drive. We decided we would stay at a hotel and they promised us the car in the morning.
I had 1/2 protein bar at Tim's as we discussed our options. Had the other half later that night. We decided on Holiday Express Inn in Whitby - they had a room. We picked up 1/4 chicken and kale salad from Superstore. Realized when we were in the room, that this was the hotel where we spent our night after our wedding. And again, it was a great hotel. Offered us all the stuff we needed at the last mintue - toothpaste, shaving cream, razor etc.
Breakfast included was 2 spoons of egg, 1 hardboiled egg, 1 bacon strip, tea. (for me). Got our car, they tried to charge us for the wipers. Got on the road early. We needed to get back up to Barrie as the funeral for our friend Charles was this morning. We got back for the reception. They did have his ashes there, so we got to say goodbye too.
I could have eaten all those cookies. It hit me hard that I was never going to see him again, hug him again, laugh with him again. I started crying, especially when I hugged Anne. I didn't want to deal with the uncomfortable emotions. I had taken 2 eggs with me from breakfast, and had a few veggies. That helped. I did know too that I choose not to eat those foods.
Jax was happy when we picked him up. He's spent most of the afternoon/evening sleeping. Thankfully our neighbour had come over to take care of our cats. I was very pleased with my choices of foods, even though I used acceptable protein bars, and the foods had a lot of salt. I didn't eat things that weren't acceptable. For me though, the bars are too much - as in, they kick me out of keto. Still a blessing to have for emergencies. Showed that I was able to make it thru unplanned meals/stays etc. Glad I'm home, and tomorrow start back on my egg plan. Not really the fast, just more eggs like the first week. I got keto sticks too to help me see where I am on the carbs. I imagine I'm up in weight, BUT the blessing is - I stayed on track! Other times, something like that would have given me the excuse to just eat, or skip until getting home. I'm pleased with my choices and now know keeping emergency supplies in my purse is a good idea. Need to remember too - this is a life change for me, and things happen - can I stay on track? If so, the weight will do what it does, and I can be happy that I know my decisions are wise.
As for the car...... next time there is a service recall... it's going to be easier to just buy a new car! ha ha ha 😃🚙
Sunday, December 4, 2016
Biting off Emotions
Anger. Worry. Upset. Knew it! Could use that crunchy foods. Sigh.
I got an email from my sister letting me know that our mother fainted and was in the hospital. She was messengering me about it.... but I'm rarely on my cell phone, and not on Facebook that much. I basically live life and add a computer into it, instead of live on my computer and visit the outside. When I called her, she quickly advised me her cell phone was dying. I asked if mother was ok - yes. And then asked if anything happened again, please CALL me, on the home phone first as, again I don't keep my cell phone on or near me. She said ok and that they were going home now.
I have issues with my sister. We just don't communicate well. I want to talk, but we somehow butt heads when we do - especially when things are stressful. Will be fun when our mother dies!!!! Not.
I eventually found her messages on FB. Basically they found a heart mummur and she's getting older (mom's 83). I have a feeling of what's coming, and even knowing that, it's hard to keep emotional anxiety in control. I did my best, and I know my sister did her best. I have FB messaged her an apology - hopefully that will help. Remember to breathe....and sigh. And let go.
I was thinking the other day that I did well when I ate more eggs and a bit of cheese - wasn't as hungry. I thought I'd go back to it, then looked up some egg recipes and found, of all things, a blog where she did an Egg Fast. Site number 2 that I found is here. First site was - this one. I found great recipes from them! Looking forward to trying each one. More going to re-add eggs in then to completely do the fast as I'm just starting out and haven't stalled.
Monday AJ and I were to go to Moxies in Pickering. We have to bring the car in for a recall and need back down there as they ordered the part. Moxies has a lettuce burger. Now I will need to rethink my lunch/snack foods as we will probably go see my mom. IF she stays home and doesn't go out like she originally planned. Knowing my mother, she will go out to her club's Christmas party! We did originally plan to go down this coming Saturday. She likes to party. Good for her. And this blog write up helped me - don't need those chips now.
I got an email from my sister letting me know that our mother fainted and was in the hospital. She was messengering me about it.... but I'm rarely on my cell phone, and not on Facebook that much. I basically live life and add a computer into it, instead of live on my computer and visit the outside. When I called her, she quickly advised me her cell phone was dying. I asked if mother was ok - yes. And then asked if anything happened again, please CALL me, on the home phone first as, again I don't keep my cell phone on or near me. She said ok and that they were going home now.
I have issues with my sister. We just don't communicate well. I want to talk, but we somehow butt heads when we do - especially when things are stressful. Will be fun when our mother dies!!!! Not.
I eventually found her messages on FB. Basically they found a heart mummur and she's getting older (mom's 83). I have a feeling of what's coming, and even knowing that, it's hard to keep emotional anxiety in control. I did my best, and I know my sister did her best. I have FB messaged her an apology - hopefully that will help. Remember to breathe....and sigh. And let go.
I was thinking the other day that I did well when I ate more eggs and a bit of cheese - wasn't as hungry. I thought I'd go back to it, then looked up some egg recipes and found, of all things, a blog where she did an Egg Fast. Site number 2 that I found is here. First site was - this one. I found great recipes from them! Looking forward to trying each one. More going to re-add eggs in then to completely do the fast as I'm just starting out and haven't stalled.
Monday AJ and I were to go to Moxies in Pickering. We have to bring the car in for a recall and need back down there as they ordered the part. Moxies has a lettuce burger. Now I will need to rethink my lunch/snack foods as we will probably go see my mom. IF she stays home and doesn't go out like she originally planned. Knowing my mother, she will go out to her club's Christmas party! We did originally plan to go down this coming Saturday. She likes to party. Good for her. And this blog write up helped me - don't need those chips now.
Saturday, December 3, 2016
I'm a Vixen
I'm a Vixen.... no, not one of Santa's reindeer. When I was at art class the other day, Charlotte saw me and said she liked my new short hair cut. I mentioned that it was coloured brown with reddish tint along with the streaks. She said, of course, everyone needs a bit of red in their hair..... it makes you a Vixen. ha ha ha. Like it.
This Vixen though has been hungry lately. Not sure why. Might be nerves over the weight loss I did have and therefore wanting to eat, or might just be that week of being hungry, or the protein bars. Either way I need to watch it. I'm still on Phase 1, even though I was told I could do Phase 2. I have added the carrots and onions in. Going to make more Oopsie bread this weekend. Didn't make any this week and found I was missing something. I think that the Oopsies helps.
Started my December exercise challenge yesterday. It's every other day. Went for a massage (deep tissue one that it's relaxing, more ouch, ooo, ouch type) as my leg has been very painful for the last few weeks. Takes a while to get an appointment with Jane, she's very busy. Feels better now but body is tired.
Actually was tired all day. Also someone posted on Poon Facebook that they wanted to do a 'tapping' challenge for December. As I know about tapping, (helps with emotional release) I thought that wouldn't be a bad idea to do. So I'm up for that. I now need to find my info book on it. Not sure how she wants to do it, so I will wait and see. Might also help with the nerves/fears of weight loss and eating. Actually probably will.
Have been reading about Lupin Flour and looking for recipes. I have some as it's very low in carb. Basically looks like bread or muffin ideas. Something I think for later, need to get to the next weight loss point and appointment to make sure I'm doing well. That's part of it, I fear I'm not doing well, or going to lose it. I know I am eating on plan, but there's that voice inside that says I am having too much, or the wrong thing, or it's not right somehow, that I'm going to gain the weight etc.... I fight that more then the cravings as it's more insidious. The cravings are clear and manageable, but the dark thoughts are harder. Then I fear I have done something wrong and my weight will be up. I'm too close to where I started (at 241.5 pounds) which is too easy to get back to. So I fear the Lupin Flour muffin - even though that would be a good thing to pack and carry with me so I don't go into a craving when I'm not home.
The other day when I only had the 1/2 protein bar for lunch, I was hungry at dinner and I ate. I noticed when I was eating that I was eating fast. I just couldn't feel full. That might be where all this hunger is coming from..... I wonder as I'm typing this. I know when the body is in starvation mode it A) holds on to weight, B) wants more food because it was starving before and is afraid will again and C) takes a while to trust again. Ahhhh, light bulb. I am going to have to carry more foods/better foods with me. Have to find those portable foods and make sure I have proper meals - or at the very least, enough that rounds out to a sustainable snack.
There was a drink, able to make hot too, on the Poon FB that I tried today. Was good. I get tired of tea all the time. Use to have hot chocolate and Tim's French Vanillas, and now there's just tea. This one I made hot with almond milk, and PB2, I have some Walden's Caramel so I didn't need to add stevia. Made jammie day better. Reminds me too, that I have a recipe somewhere for Turmeric tea.
So, I'm a Vixen.... ha ha ha
This Vixen though has been hungry lately. Not sure why. Might be nerves over the weight loss I did have and therefore wanting to eat, or might just be that week of being hungry, or the protein bars. Either way I need to watch it. I'm still on Phase 1, even though I was told I could do Phase 2. I have added the carrots and onions in. Going to make more Oopsie bread this weekend. Didn't make any this week and found I was missing something. I think that the Oopsies helps.
Started my December exercise challenge yesterday. It's every other day. Went for a massage (deep tissue one that it's relaxing, more ouch, ooo, ouch type) as my leg has been very painful for the last few weeks. Takes a while to get an appointment with Jane, she's very busy. Feels better now but body is tired.
Actually was tired all day. Also someone posted on Poon Facebook that they wanted to do a 'tapping' challenge for December. As I know about tapping, (helps with emotional release) I thought that wouldn't be a bad idea to do. So I'm up for that. I now need to find my info book on it. Not sure how she wants to do it, so I will wait and see. Might also help with the nerves/fears of weight loss and eating. Actually probably will.
Have been reading about Lupin Flour and looking for recipes. I have some as it's very low in carb. Basically looks like bread or muffin ideas. Something I think for later, need to get to the next weight loss point and appointment to make sure I'm doing well. That's part of it, I fear I'm not doing well, or going to lose it. I know I am eating on plan, but there's that voice inside that says I am having too much, or the wrong thing, or it's not right somehow, that I'm going to gain the weight etc.... I fight that more then the cravings as it's more insidious. The cravings are clear and manageable, but the dark thoughts are harder. Then I fear I have done something wrong and my weight will be up. I'm too close to where I started (at 241.5 pounds) which is too easy to get back to. So I fear the Lupin Flour muffin - even though that would be a good thing to pack and carry with me so I don't go into a craving when I'm not home.
The other day when I only had the 1/2 protein bar for lunch, I was hungry at dinner and I ate. I noticed when I was eating that I was eating fast. I just couldn't feel full. That might be where all this hunger is coming from..... I wonder as I'm typing this. I know when the body is in starvation mode it A) holds on to weight, B) wants more food because it was starving before and is afraid will again and C) takes a while to trust again. Ahhhh, light bulb. I am going to have to carry more foods/better foods with me. Have to find those portable foods and make sure I have proper meals - or at the very least, enough that rounds out to a sustainable snack.
There was a drink, able to make hot too, on the Poon FB that I tried today. Was good. I get tired of tea all the time. Use to have hot chocolate and Tim's French Vanillas, and now there's just tea. This one I made hot with almond milk, and PB2, I have some Walden's Caramel so I didn't need to add stevia. Made jammie day better. Reminds me too, that I have a recipe somewhere for Turmeric tea.
So, I'm a Vixen.... ha ha ha
Thursday, December 1, 2016
Hair Today, Gone Tomorrow
This week I went to the hair dresser. I saw a new woman working at the shop near us, and I asked if she was busy at the moment. Nope. Thought I would get my hair trimmed as I felt awful everytime I looked in the mirror. Tammie asked what I would like done. I said, whatever - colour it, streak it, trim it, but I don't like short hair. Ended up with it coloured (brown with reddish tint), streaked blond, and very, very, very short hair. Basically only hair long on the top. I actually like it. She said it would look good, and she was right.
So, I'm able to do Phase 2 on Dr Poon. Hence, we went for lunch today at Mucho Burrito. Had the salad bowl - minus the edible bowl. Was good. Haven't figured out dinner yet, might be that other half of the protein bar and tea. Breakfast was chia pudding with granola fiber I got at the store. Need to add a bit more fiber into things.
Talked with the naturopath about weight loss, hormones, digestive system and sleep. Spent the 2 hours discussing everything on it. He will email me his thoughts and suggestions next week.
The exercise physio explained I needed to watch my right foot, as it tends to point out. So that homework is to focus on keeping my right foot pointing straight. And there are a few more exercises for me to do. I want to do the Poon facebook challenge - 6 min exercises. It's December already and I have to look them up and get them started!!!!!
I'm hungry, so I'm off to get dinner. I read a recipe in which you take the protein bar, put it in the microwave for a few seconds, nuke it, flatten it, nuke it... and you get a big cookie. Might try that. Will be good with the tea.
So, I'm able to do Phase 2 on Dr Poon. Hence, we went for lunch today at Mucho Burrito. Had the salad bowl - minus the edible bowl. Was good. Haven't figured out dinner yet, might be that other half of the protein bar and tea. Breakfast was chia pudding with granola fiber I got at the store. Need to add a bit more fiber into things.
Talked with the naturopath about weight loss, hormones, digestive system and sleep. Spent the 2 hours discussing everything on it. He will email me his thoughts and suggestions next week.
The exercise physio explained I needed to watch my right foot, as it tends to point out. So that homework is to focus on keeping my right foot pointing straight. And there are a few more exercises for me to do. I want to do the Poon facebook challenge - 6 min exercises. It's December already and I have to look them up and get them started!!!!!
I'm hungry, so I'm off to get dinner. I read a recipe in which you take the protein bar, put it in the microwave for a few seconds, nuke it, flatten it, nuke it... and you get a big cookie. Might try that. Will be good with the tea.
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