Biting off Emotions

Anger.  Worry.  Upset.  Knew it! Could use that crunchy foods.  Sigh.

I got an email from my sister letting me know that our mother fainted and was in the hospital.  She was messengering me about it.... but I'm rarely on my cell phone, and not on Facebook that much.  I basically live life and add a computer into it, instead of live on my computer and visit the outside.  When I called her, she quickly advised me her cell phone was dying.  I asked if mother was ok - yes. And then asked if anything happened again, please CALL me, on the home phone first as, again I don't keep my cell phone on or near me.  She said ok and that they were going home now.

I have issues with my sister.  We just don't communicate well.  I want to talk, but we somehow butt heads when we do - especially when things are stressful.  Will be fun when our mother dies!!!!  Not.

I eventually found her messages on FB.  Basically they found a heart mummur and she's getting older (mom's 83).  I have a feeling of what's coming, and even knowing that, it's hard to keep emotional anxiety in control.  I did my best, and I know my sister did her best.  I have FB messaged her an apology - hopefully that will help.  Remember to breathe....and sigh.  And let go.

I was thinking the other day that I did well when I ate more eggs and a bit of cheese - wasn't as hungry.  I thought I'd go back to it, then looked up some egg recipes and found, of all things, a blog where she did an Egg Fast.  Site number 2 that I found is here.  First site was - this one.  I found great recipes from them! Looking forward to trying each one.  More going to re-add eggs in then to completely do the fast as I'm just starting out and haven't stalled.

Monday AJ and I were to go to Moxies in Pickering.  We have to bring the car in for a recall and need back down there as they ordered the part.  Moxies has a lettuce burger.  Now I will need to rethink my lunch/snack foods as we will probably go see my mom.  IF she stays home and doesn't go out like she originally planned.  Knowing my mother, she will go out to her club's Christmas party!  We did originally plan to go down this coming Saturday.  She likes to party.  Good for her.  And this blog write up helped me - don't need those chips now.