Almost Christmas time, tomorrow is Eve, and then Day. Looks like there will be a bit of snow tomorrow morning but then it will be good for both days. So that means driving to my cousin's place for Eve, and AJ's family for Day. Best is the Eve, not that it's my family but because Jax can come with. AJ's family is 46 this year - so Jax is not invited. It's an hour drive there and then another hour drive home. Jax should be fine, he's young, has good 'hold', and we won't be gone for long.
I have my treats to bring with me to both places, and feel I have no desire to go off plan. Going off is the worse idea - at least for me. I would have such a horrible time then getting back on track if I did. Besides, I know this is a life change - one that I want to do. I find that I am doing well and peaceful on it.
Speaking of which... I see a social worker, but I also every once in a while see another worker. She works more in the energy realm. I saw her the other day and talked about my feelings of being down but fine. She explained that what was going on with me was I was bored. Just plain bored, and that was normal. I wasn't having drama in my life. I wasn't FEEDING the drama, I wasn't creating any drama either. My food is very peaceful, I am good with it, and not feeling stressed over my choices. It's what I have longed for, for so long. Doesn't mean I don't think every once in a while of wanting a something - but really, most 'somethings' I can create and have. My life doesn't have any drama (at least at the moment) and that's again what I want. I just desire a peaceful, calm, light, enjoyable life. One where food doesn't control my life. What a graceful Christmas gift.
So being bored means - life is normal. Hum. She laughed and said I could create drama if I wanted..... NO, I don't want it. I'll take the boring normal. It's something I've never had most of my life, so this is very new and different. I'm guessing in time I will find a peaceful way thru and start doing that which I'm drawn to do. She said at the moment just watch the drama around, and if I just want to sit and stare at a tree - then do it. I shall be at family and watch the drama! ha ha ha. Actually I don't see either family having much drama - neither really have it, they all get along, even the 46!
Tonight we have some neighbours over for dinner. Simply shepperd's pie, green bean salad, peppers and jello with berries. No mashed potatoes - mashed cauliflower.
Wishing all a quiet, peaceful, drama-free Christmas Season. Til after Christmas.
Ta
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