Went to bed early last night. Therefore I ended up waking up early too! And that spring forward change....I got up at 720am. Jax and cats fed, Jax walked, and AJ was up so we went to Superstore to get some groceries. Ugh - I never seem to come out of that with a bit of food and low cost. I do look for the 30% off etc.
Then after I went to the Dollarstore. I needed some more art supplies. I've been doing acrylic pours. Basically mix acrylic colours in a cup and pour them on the canvass. LOTS of tutorials on Youtube.
I do enjoy doing them as they create almost their own design. Very similar in a way to the wax art I was doing in Barrie when I melted crayons on the iron and then iron it on papers. Messier too. I've done a few - have to get photos of them one day and show you. But in a way, not the most interesting for me. No creating in a way. And it is done fast - so basically if I could I'd probably be able to do like 20 of them in an hour. Just don't want to do SO many at once. I will do a few more then probably go back to creating with paint. I have a few things that I'd like to add, like feathers, to pictures. Maybe I will add some feathers to an art pour.
Nice day outside, but too cold still for me. That cold just continues to get in my lungs.
Had trouble yesterday at being hungry all day, but not really hungry. I think it had somewhat to do with emotions. I simply have been feeling down or sad the past few days. Yesterday it really hit hard. It's the Metho. Takes 4 days out of me. I don't know if I can continue doing it. I'm so sad and down. It's a dark place to be and move into or thru. I know not to let myself get into it and stay there - to remind myself it's the medication and in a few days I will feel better. But still. AJ continues to ask me if I'm ok and feels so lost since he's unable to help me when I'm in it. I need to remember he cares, and not bite his head off. Sometimes he will ask if I'm ok, I'll say no. Then about 5 or 10 mins later he will ask again - and I want to bite him/ scream and swear - what makes you think 5 or 10 mins is going to change? I don't say mean things to him. Basically just - I just told you, nothings changed. And I want to eat. Between the leptin in my brain being short circuited and the sad hunger it's a bit of a fight. I usually do increase a bit of the food, I just can't not.
Today is better.
I also continue to listen to those binaural beats. Listen to ones on weight loss/ eating / stomach (metho causes nausea) / relaxing / wealth sometimes / chakras etc.
That's about it. It's 646pm and so light out.....now just warm up!
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