Sigh

Have really been struggling lately in wanting to just 'stop'.  Not giving up, just taking a break, a pause.  I continue to sit around 205 / 206 lbs.  Today it was 206. I'm to weigh in on Tuesday - I was 205 last time.  Seriously doesn't look like I'm going to be able to get below that!  If I do, I will be stunned.  I'm not stressed or upset over my weight.  Just worn out with it.

Was suppose to do cardio and weights today - just didn't have it in me.  Will have to do it tomorrow, which is ok.  I did do cardio the day before.  Surprisingly, I am down 1.5 inches on my bust, waist, 1 inch down on my hips.  That makes me feel great.  I know with exercising is working / helping.  Just seems my weight is SO F**#*($)#@N slow!  So much so, that I'm not really doing all that well with the carbs.  They are creeping up a bit.  Not so much that I'm freaking out about it, but just knowing the bit more carbs stales the weight loss.  I feel alone in this.  I know I have Dr Poon's staff, and my hubby - just no one to talk/share with and encourage each other.

Today:
Breakfast - Eggs, 1 slice bread (lc), butter, jam, zucchini, coffee/chocolate with marshmallows (lc)
Lunch - Chicken, veg soup (spinach/celery/cauliflower/broccoli in beef stock), bread/butter/jam, tea stevia/lemon, flax brownie with jam, peanut ball (protein powder and peanut butter mixed)
Snack - piece of chocolate (small)
Dinner - swiss chard, fish, raw cabbage/dressing, jello, donut, tea stevia/lemon.

Probably will have another peanut ball later.

As you can see - the carbs are higher, but not really that high.  This is mostly how my days go.  Sometimes a few too many snacks.  One of the things I found was chicken with olive oil and balsamic vinegar.  That tastes delicious.  Again all allowable foods.

I have decided to stop with the whey protein and bars that I have been using - even though Dr B says I can have them.  Mostly because I know dairy doesn't go well on me.  I read a lot about whey protein not being that good for a person.  (To each their own).  Problem is - unless it's whey, you can't bake with it.... or so I thought.  I have read a few recipes with pea/rice/hemp etc. Decided I would try them instead.  Went today and got a hemp one and a pea mix one.  Will try tomorrow a few recipe ideas.  Hopefully they will work out and I can use them as snacks.  Another thing I'm going to try limiting is the flax bagels (allowed) and use bread slices instead (allowed, but lower in calories).

I haven't been sleeping well.  I sleep, just not restfully and well.  Oh well.

Ah, after the whining... I'm just going to plod along.....