I'm anxious. I know the logical part of me says it's ok, it will work out. Emotionally I'm struggling. I have been doing all the anxiety stuff - like the 5 things - what do I see, what do I feel, what do I hear, what do I taste, what am I presently doing. I noticed last night that I have I been covering myself with a comforter even though it's not that cold at night. It offers heaviness. Having a heavy blanket etc on will also calm anxiety. As the days have pasted I am better. Though I suspect tomorrow - Monday - I was get over anxious again!
Why?
Because we are wanting to put siding on our house. First it was about the $$$ and AJ's take on it. Then about having to really watch our bills if we do the siding as in don't spend so much on food etc. Then it was about trying to find someone to do the siding. Got quotes - some were very high. Ended up going back to the guy that does a lot of work in this community. Basically there's company A - Art, and company B - Bill. Rumors are they are family related anyways.
Last year we found an amazing company, we know the guys and their work, excellent. They offered to do the job, but then dropped off the face of the earth! Company C - Darryl. We wanted Darryl. Never heard from him all winter. So, we decided on Bill. Bill wasn't sure he could get the siding / colour - company I wanted as he didn't deal with them. Problem there. Then Bill said he found someone where he could get the colour from for me. YEAH. He needed to work out the quote and would get back to me this week. Suddenly Darryl called. He explained he had company issues and we accepted his explanation. He said he would give us a good quote if we would give him a chance again. Ok. We also stated to him extra work we wanted done if he was to do the siding. Bill wouldn't really do the extra that we wanted, and if he did it would cost us more with him. He does so much of the same thing in this community (Bill) that he basically does it his way. Hence why we didn't want him or Art.
Another thing we have to do is get the colour approved by the office. It's called Mitten Eggplant. Kinda a dark brown with plum tones. NOT one of the colours ever put in this community. So that's new to try to get it thru. I went on Friday to see the guy - Rick, but he wasn't in, and no one would approve it. Meaning I have to wait until Monday.... or Tuesday to see, and if need be talk with Rick. One good thing about inputting on Friday was we were planning to go with Bill who they know well and the secretary wrote Bill's name on my sheet. Maybe that will help get my colour thru easier. Darryl called while I was at the office! (ha ha ha) and came by today.
I am anxious about:
1. Bill trying to get the colour.... then he got it.
2. Having to go to the office to input the request.
3. Getting a call from Darryl...... now I have to decide do I want Darryl or Bill.
4. Waiting for Darryl's and Bill's quotes and what the cost is.
5. Having to decide (99% sure on Darryl) and having to tell Bill thanks for finding the colour, but we will use someone else.
6. Having to still talk, hear from Rick.
7. Neighbour Steve and his pooping dog (poops as close as Steve can get him to poop to our side, and as close to where I walk out) Passive-aggressive action. Instead of talking with me about our un-defined space (as the land is owned by the company not the people - only the houses are ours..... so no fences are allowed, and no real boundaries are stated)
8. Having to talk with Rick about pooping Steve.... after our colour is approved, to have some confirmed boundary. I have decided I will do my best semi fence the major areas between Steve and us. I have been keeping a list of dates and photos of proof of poops so that Steve can't continue saying he picks up the poop. Steve doesn't, his wife will eventually. But I still have to watch where I and Jax walk.
Yeah, ok, 7 and 8 don't have to do with siding, but do have to do with anxiety. I really don't want conflict with Steve. Last year Steve told Rick he didn't want me walking on what was my maintained side of the grass. Steve never talked with me about it, and since then he's been doing the dog poop plan all winter. I continue to be polite to him and his wife. I know getting Rick involved will probably tick Steve off, but at least it will be boundaried by the office and not me. And I'm anxious/stressed about how all this will play out.
All this, I'm not eating over, but still anxious. Speaking of eating, I ended up doing the laundry after the last post.
Sigh.
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