Onward

Ah, it's Friday.  Actually that doesn't mean much for me.  Just that it's jammie day tomorrow.  Going to relax tomorrow as I went for a Biophoton Therapy again today.  Promptly had work done on my owies from Sunday's ice fall.

Has a bit of a headache last night.  Around 2am I decided I wasn't going to get up early and go for exercising, so I turned off my alarm.  At 530am I woke... by 6am I was basically awake, grouched about it, and got myself up by 615am.  AJ had a bad night so he slept in.  I got myself out and up to the gym - did my cardio and weights.  Was glad I got it done.  My headache was gone anyway.  Was wet and damp all day - figure that was where my headache came from.

Yesterday was Poon day.  Down 1.9 lbs in water.  Dr B wants me to go back to more Phase 1 eating.  Sigh.  I'm ok during the day, by 5pm to 9pm I just get the munchies and hungry longings.  I feel like I'm dying to eat.  I KNOW that's not true.  I know it's an emotion trigger.  I'm hoping Monday's therapy appointment will help me deal with this.  I know it's all up to me to just change my goals in the evenings.  I think spring / summer, with better weather will also help. Even typing away here, there is a part of me that wants to run and see what there is to eat.  I'm not hungry - I know that.  It's emotional.  I work at trying to get to why / changing it.  Drink water.  Type it out.  Too cold and wet to walk.  Could go and clean the bathroom... maybe I will.  Or maybe I will just go onto an OA website and listen to one of the talks.  Currently the news is on, AJ is watching it, but soon, or I could leave, I could do one talk.  That actually might be an excellent idea!  🌟

Just so you know, it's not chocolates that I'm hunting.  I'm hunting pretty much anything.  So I could get some chicken and salad.  I know though, that I'm full from dinner and I don't have room to add chicken / salad.  Even water doesn't fit in that much.  There is enough veg in the fridge to eat.  The more I'm typing the less I want to eat something.

Drives me crazy (a bit) that I can sense 'emotions' just underlining in me and I can't seem to grab it.  Even so, today's typing is helping me breathe thru it.  Part of it is, I am tired.  Not enough to sleep, but enough to be fatigued.

So.  Now.  I'm going to veg a bit more with the news / TV and then get myself moving.  There's always laundry.......