Hot Chick

Apparently people are starting to notice me.  Not that they have really said anything to me - except Patty who is in charge of the doggy day care.  She asked last week if I was losing weight, as it looked like I did.  'You have lost a ton of weight.'  Well, not a TON, and I didn't 'lose' it, I got rid of it.  Told her yes, I have been working on it, and no it's not because of trauma issues going on in my life.

Then there was the woman from the photography group who commented to AJ about me losing weight / noticing it.

At the gym the other day, when I was waiting for Josh, a woman we know came in, talked a while with her.  We would go to dances with the group she is in.  We don't really go dancing anymore, as ... well, I guess because we just don't feel like it.  Though they do have a comedy night coming up May 26th, AJ's birthday is May 30th, so we decided to go.  The group isn't going.  But, the point was - she saw me, and told Iain about me.  Now AJ offers a Chat group on Disability once a month, and Iain is his co-helper.  (on a side note again:  for a community that has a lot of disabled, older people, they suck at coming out to this group - AJ thinks he will give it up in June as it's just not coming together).   Iain hasn't been showing up, or picking AJ up for it for the last 2 months.  Usually AJ calls him to remind him of the meeting and see about a pick up.  Well, last night Iain called AJ and said he heard AJ was involved with a hot chick!  The woman from the gym told him.  Iain also said he'd come pick up AJ for the meeting which just happens to be this Thursday.  Hummm, I wonder if I'm going to be checked out.

People have made comments to AJ about me / my weight loss, not really to me about it.  I think .... that's ok.  I understand the sensitivity of it, and I don't think I want to be commented or questioned about it.  It's nice to know they are noticing, but in the same breath it's not making me feel all that thrilled - which is funny to me.  Before I use to want the attention and notices.  Now, I just want the weight loss and firm body, without a lot of comments.  I don't mind the comments, just don't focus on them with me.  How weird is that?

It does put a bit of pressure on me to continue.  Especially since the last few days I've been eating like there's no tomorrow.  I even ended up crying on the floor because I just didn't want to eat, and I wanted food.  AJ got himself down on the floor (remember he is disabled, and on the floor is not a place for him) and hugged me until I stopped crying.  I don't know if the eating has to do with all the pain I'm in, or because it's 'that time of the month'.  I don't have confirmation anymore because of the hysterectomy, but I still have my ovaries so I get 'that time of the month' symptoms.  Today I'm starting to rein it in - the eating, I feel better even though the pain continues.  We were to go this morning for cardio, might do it later.  AJ keeps saying to take the day off.  It's weights at home day - probably will do them at least.  I don't want to stop - especially since I ate so much.

I changed my Poon appointment from Tuesday to Friday.  Really because of a possible snowstorm coming in on Tuesday and Friday is the next possible time for us to get down to Poons.  I would have gone and weighed in on Tuesday, but driving in a storm, and pain..... better to ease up on that.  Either way, I still need to continue on my goals.

I think, since this shoulder blade pain has not stopped, that I might have myofascial pain.  Which means it might be a while until it stops hurting.  I had myofascial pain in my other shoulder/arm when I worked - it took weeks for the pain to LESSEN.  Working on the computer really doesn't help it.  I have an appointment tomorrow morning at 740am (ugh, on top of that the time change adjustment) with the physio.  Kyle is a different physiotherapist that I have gone to - problem is, he costs.  The physio we were going to was under coverage, but that physiotherapist really didn't do much to help me.  He was to have me ready for exercising - which I personally kept telling him, and he just kept not doing much for it!  I know Kyle will be a better help - we've been to him before.

Quickie on the RTT - was good and insightful.  Have a copy to listen to for the next 21 days on affirmations about money for me.  Did feel a shift within me when I was there.  I do feel calmer about money.  Glad I went.  Think in a month or so I will go about my weight / food - just to clear up some lingering beliefs and concerns I have.

This hot chick is coming out of her shell....... 😇