Owwie

Those pants I almost missed, and the red pair too....gone.  I couldn't take it, they both were falling/sliding down on me.  The red pair had a bit of a smaller waist, but in the end, too big too.  Into the bag for the shelter they went.  I decided instead of giving them to my sister, as I have always done with my clothes (sis goes up and down in weight too) it would be better and more helpful to share them with those that do need clothes.  My sister is $ better off then me, so really, she needs my clothes?  I don't mean that in a b*tchy way - I love my sister, even if I don't see her that often.  Besides, she at least notices my weight loss!  ha ha ha.

Things in the gym with Josh are going well - if only I wouldn't push myself so much on my own!  I was doing cardio on Monday, and really pushed into the interval on the optical/stepper.  I held on too tightly and did something to my left shoulder/blade/back of arm.  So much so that I can't sleep.  I'm continuously in some sort of pain.  Funny thing is, I can move my arm.  Josh came for Wednesday's work out, and I told him about it.  He insists on knowing of any pain or injury or uncomfortable we have.  He worked on my shoulder/blade and I could do all the movements.  Even doing the weights, except the push one arm one, I could do.  If I pull my back blades together it feels ok, but when I pull/ lean forward or sleep with it pulling down I'm in pain.  I tend to sleep on my sides - that hurts it, but on my back it doesn't, tho I don't really sleep.  Have been icing, now using heat - that seems to help.

My butt is sore again too.  AJ had to rub it.  Ha ha.  My hips are sore, my arms are sore.  Apparently AJ is fine - I'm telling Josh that he has to work AJ harder!

Last night I couldn't sleep (pain) and I was HUNGRY.  At 230am I got up, ate a chicken breast... prompting Jax and Moonbeam out of a sleep and come running. Then a protein bar.  Back to bed about 430am.  Woke and I was still so hungry, that I walked Jax asap, and had breakfast even before showering.  Had a coffee with protein shake, and a cinn/flax bagel with butter and jam.  Basically ate most of my macros today already.  I'm not so hungry anymore.

It's been snowing all day off and on.  I was out at 230am shoveling the deck off. Figured I'd better not shovel the driveway at that time in the morning.  And since this morning I was focused on breakfast I didn't go out either..... it's warmed up and the driveway is basically melted. YES!  Problem is the snow on the car doesn't seem to be melting, which means I will need to brush it off / shovel it down before leaving for my appointment this evening.  Going to do that Rapid Transformational Therapy hypnosis.  Looking forward to that, hope it will help with the $$$.

I do get it.  Money is not the be all and end all.  It's just I find I'm having an issue with my beliefs about money.  Like there's never enough etc.  I can't have what I want etc.  We don't live 'rich', and I'm not one that spends money on trinkets.  It's just, there never seems to be enough for the basics (food).  That tells me, I'm spending too much on the basics and I need to stop - to live within my (our) financial means.  Which .... I don't do, and I'm p*ssed off with it, just like I was (am) about my weight and I know I need to do something to change it.  Just stopping isn't working, so I'm taking another approach to it.

Now, is it lunchtime yet?  Oh, that shoulder hurts......