Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Wrong Side

Ugh.  I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.  I think I should not have gotten out of bed.  Oh, wait... I went to the chair, so that's the problem - I woke up not even in bed.

Not a great night sleep I guess. About 4am I couldn't breathe, and ended up going to get my puffer and going to the chair to sleep until 7am.  I don't know why I couldn't breathe - I could hear the crackling.

Jax had seemed to be 'burpy' which is what woke me at 4am.  I took him out for a pee.  And he came to sleep with me on the chair.  He didn't want his breakfast this morning.  And this afternoon seemed to go outside to toss.  He has eaten since, a bit.

Moonbeam is driving me crazy.  He is fine to poop in the litterbox, but has an issue with peeing in it.  He's peeing in my art room on the small rug.  Tried washing the rug - #$#*@% - now I'm busy steaming the washer for 4 hours.  Threw that out.  Put a pee pad down on the spot.  Before in the old house he had started going on the couch.  Had pads after the first/ second time.  Yes, I took him to the vet, did all the tests.  Nothing is wrong with him.  Some days he's fine with going to the litterbox.  He had started in my bathroom rug, but I started closing the door so now it's the art room.  I don't know what to do.  I've changed the litter, cleaned it spotless.  Even in the old house I was very careful to keep the area and house clean.  People looking said they couldn't smell we had a cat, let alone 2 of them in that place.  He's old.  He's pissing me off with his peeing.

Had to bring AJ to the hospital for a CT scan on his one kidney, he promptly walked me (I was helping him to walk because of the snow etc) into a pole.  That ticked me off today too.  He tends to plan his route but ignores where I walk, though wants me to hold him so he doesn't fall.  Most of the time I tell him he's making me walk into / off of / beside something. You'd think he'd realize....nope.  I'd still be willing to have a day with him walking me into a pole then a day without him.  Doesn't mean he doesn't do things that piss me off.  And I do things that piss him off too, I'm sure, though I don't know what as I'm so fabulously  awesome!

Only one here today that's doing well is my little high maintenance Princess.

Not sure what's set me off today.  Nothing really has happened to put me in this mood.  I'm just pissy angry all over the place.  I'm not interested in talking to anyone either.  Ended up telling AJ I was leaving the hospital as he was going to be over an hour, I just didn't want to sit that long, and I needed to go shopping.  Told him, and kissed him bye.  He agreed that sitting around is boring.  I am pleasant to AJ and others even though I'm in a mood.  Moreso just struggle to talk with anyone or answer questions.

Also I know about Zening and light and mantras and positive outlook etc stuff to do.  Bite me - ha ha ha.  No, I do agree with them and do work at including a better perspective.  Unfortunately standing in my art room (smells ok) and thinking of doing some art to express my feelings...just doesn't cut it today.  Neither does walking in this beautiful sunshine (Jax would go for that idea) way too cold for me still.  Oh, writing is another outlet - guess I've accomplished that.

But what would work great is:












AND MORE




Ok, maybe not, but would be delicious.  😺

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