But Why?

Kids have this amazing ability to drive a parent crazy with.....WHY?  Why?  Because I said so!  Why?  

I was listening last evening to Abraham Hicks - here -  and there was a bit on asking why.  If you want something, keep yourself in the why.  Not how.  Because HOW takes you out of the presence of focusing on your goal.  WHY keeps it active and in the present.

Thought about that.  Why really does help keep me in the now and manifesting active.  Especially if I keep answering the why.

Most of yesterday I was struggling with dark thoughts.  Being really hard on myself.  Making myself think on how selfish I am, how I just think about what I want, about how I don't care of others etc.  I was able a few times to tell myself to stop it.  Was a long day with those thoughts.  

I think having so many busy struggling dreams was causing some of it.  Night before I was running away from ? someone, was in Russia far north in snow.  Was innocent, but guilty.  As in this time I was innocent of what I was accused of, but in the past I had done it.  I dreamt this a few times that night, in various ways.

Then next night I dreamt of struggling and murdering people.  Dreamt I murdered a previous manager and someone else.  Then something else happening.  

Last night I dreamt of - ah - can't remember but it was busy and struggling again.

I'm not sure why I am having these dreams.  I hope I am clearing things tho.

Not much more happening.

Other then the wind!