Friday Rambles

Not much to report today.  Last couple of days have been quiet.  Have been on track with my Poon foods.   Today was:
S - chia pudding - 2 mouthfuls as it wasn't good
B - shake
L - broccoli salad and grill chicken, tea
D - zucchini/bok choy stir fry, ground chicken, JELLO, and tea

Just decided that today we would have jello (sugar free), because - well just because.  I had the snack at 6am this morning as I was going to head out after breakfast to Wal-Mart.  Which wasn't busy at 830am.  Best deal I got was at PetSmart.  I got a huge pillow bed for Jax.  Jax, and the two cats would fit on it, without touching each other......though the cats wouldn't go for that idea of being on a pillow with each other.  ha ha.
I really didn't plan to go Black Friday shopping, I just had to get a few things at Wal-Mart and needed to go early as a friend was coming over in the afternoon.  (my walking friend, Anne)

I did watch more of that Dr T DVD.  I had a huh shock by something she mentioned.  She was talking on how food addiction hits all three - serotonin, dopamine, and endorphin, in the brain and the only other thing that hits all three is alcohol.  What shocked me was I remember I was putting the wine in the fridge years ago, knowing I was doing it because I wanted to feel numb, and also knowing somewhere back deep in my mind that it wasn't really the best plan - I understand now that had I gone thru with that plan and started drinking, on top of my eating, I never would have survived.  I would have gone down a path that would have only led to death.  My eating was slowly killing me, but adding alcohol to it, I wouldn't have been able to live thru it.  I think too I would have died soon after, as in less then 5 years.  The increase of what I would have done to get that numbness feeling would have been so fast and quick.  I NOW understand, I can not drink alcohol at all.

The other thing I saw as that chocolates and sugar are an opiate.  The numbness of pain just as the endorphin does.  Sugar also hits the dopamine.  But it confirms to me that I was eating chocolates to numb myself.

Tomorrow is jammie day.  Considering they are talking of rain/snow, I'm glad we're not doing anything but reading and relaxing.  Next week will be busy for us.