Have been out of sorts the last few days. Very tired. Can't figure out if it's from detoxing still, my gall bladder, or just tired from everything. I know my iron is down (saw the blood work). It's not as simple as take some iron. I need to confirm what the other iron levels are (more blood work to come then) before I take iron as I've had trouble since my last 'dieting and illness'. Need to be careful - and I want to do weight loss in a healthy way this time, so it will last.
Saturday's meals were:
B - egg/kale muffin and chia pudding
L - veg soup (made it yesterday) and oopsie slice, with laughing cow cheese (I know, I know, cheese is dairy - I can tolerate BITS of dairy, just not 8oz for breakfast and then 4oz for bed, and then another 8oz the next day....etc)
S - oppsie slice again
D - a very delicious recipe I found of cabbage tuna casserole. Was very filling, and quite good. Will make it again. Best part, it filled me up but not to the point of gb pain.
I have been in a bit of grieving process - might be the tiredness too - talking with AJ yesterday, I said the one thing I couldn't get when I was at RH was an understanding of my food addiction and if I really was. Years and years ago I gave up chocolate bars etc for 6 years. As I spoke with AJ, I was struggling with the issue of foods and that I was getting stressed about everything I was eating. Not a good idea for me. As we talked, I realized I got off track when I started the chocolates again. Now I could see chocolates are my trigger food. Sugar will get me there too, but not to the extreme as chocolates. When sugar is limited, I am better. The wheat, gluten, and grains are a choice I want to limit also. I do better on low carb. Because of this insight.... I know chocolates are gone again, and I could cry. I haven't figured out if cocoa is out. There is something about store brought/made chocolates that trigger me. Occasionally I would make my own chocolate and, well, it just didn't do it for me. So that still might be an option, at the moment not.
RH the focus was on healthy eating and keeping off the sugar/wheat/grains. I did lose 2.5 pounds while I was there (per the RH doctor's scale). I checked my weight today on my scale and I'm down 11.5 pounds. When I see my family doctor I will check on his scale - and mine - and see how close they are, and confirm.
I would like to study my books/dvd for an hour a day, just to keep on track and have more understanding. With the coming snow storm today, I will not be going to a meeting, not driving in bad weather. I know I need to keep aware of my addiction / trigger especially since shopping yesterday at the grocery store, I needed to leave the chocolates and it wasn't easy, not that hard either, but more just awareness and longing cravings. Being tired makes them louder. I know I choose this route. I know this is what I want - to be clear in my head, healthy in my body, and stable with my emotions.
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