Nerves and Disappointment

Ouch.  I went to the Nerve Doc.  He did testing.  Basically electric impulses and then needles into the muscles.  I'm fine, as I suspected.  I knew nothing would come thru - usually what happens.  I do apparently still have minor carpal tunnel in my right arm.  I use to have it very bad when I worked.

The electric impulses hurt, but when he put the needle into my shin muscle, I semi-jumped and started seriously crying.  It was painful.  He asked why I was crying.  Duh, it hurt.  Asked if I wanted to stop.  It took me a bit, but I was able to stop crying and continue.  He continued putting the needle into my right leg, then my right arm, and one in my back.  The back one is causing me trouble with breathing today.  The rest of the needle spots still ache.  I'm sore because of all of it.

I'm not in a good place since yesterday.

I went to bed the other night, and had taken some Ignatius homeopathic pills. Have been taking them more often.  It helps calm my thinking, also works on grief.  I was sleeping, and then woke about an hour later, I heard the word - disappointment.  I thought about about that and realized I'm disappointed.  I'm disappointed about the selling of the house taking so long (the guy liked our house/price but not the back yard.  The woman liked our house, put the conditional offer in which wasn't good for us, and the couple liked our house but wasn't ready to move - then why look?)  I'm disappointed that I can't make an offer on a house/move until we sell.  I'm disappointed with myself at being so upset/impatient etc.  I'm disappointed with me eating!  I'm disappointed I will not continue with IP as I should.  Though today I'm back on IP.  I'm disappointed I have gained some of the weight.  I'm disappointed  I don't take it seriously enough to really push myself thru and continue to my goal weight.  I'm disappointed I'm just eating whatever.  I'm disappointed with life.  I'm seriously down about things.  I'm not in a good place because of all this.  And the electric / needles didn't help - hurt physically which also pushed onto my emotions and sadness.

I thought of taking some homeopathic pills for disappointment.  The girl at the health store didn't know enough, but suggested (via the book) on Ignatius!!!  ha ha ha.  Got some more as I was running out.

Slept last night a bit better.  That helped.  I'm still tired this morning and going to go for a nap after this.  Nothing else planned for the day - it's only 1130am!  At least the weather is comfortable and nice.  Wish someone would make an offer - that is acceptable! - so we could go to London and look.  Found quite a few I'd like to look at.  Everything in it's own time.........