Sad

I'm in a sad place today.  I'm just sad all over.  Went to art class - sad I'm going to be no longer going there when we move.  Sad at no longer having that contact with the women I have come to be comfortable with.  I know I could possibly find another art class where we move to.

I'm sad about having to leave all the contacts I've made here - doctors, Jacqui, Marly, art class, few neighbours.  My purple house..... -correction, THE purple house.  I look a few times at places closer, where AJ would have access to things, the houses are just way out of our price range.  Even townhouses.  End up back in the London area.  Even thinking of adding St Thomas back on the list, as if we get into the more main area we will be better - AJ says they have 8 Tim Hortons!

I'm sad that we are having trouble with our open house plans.  On realtor it does not show that we are having an open house this weekend/Saturday at 1030am. But it does show our agent's other listing's open house at 1230pm and another open house listed for 1pm in our area.  At least we are in the paper.  We had someone come thru at dinner time last night, haven't heard anything.  I had hoped we wouldn't have to do the open house (because the house would be sold by then) so we wouldn't have to take the cats out - they are weirded out by all the constant cleaning as it is!

Today I'm sad about all the moving, selling, looking - instead of hoping, I'm just eh, if it happens, it happens, when it happens.  But I also know, I'm one that ok we made this decision move, lets get going with it.  Move along the sale of this place to SOLD, and lets get looking at where/houses we are going to.  I don't want to wait these next 2 1/2 months having this house listed/not sold/waiting to sell only to have it taken off the market and put back on in the spring.  I don't want to drag out the boxes with coats and boots etc out/open them for the winter at this place.  Let's get going Spirit!  I also know everything in it's right time, and we will have everything happen in perfect order.

I'm sad that I'm struggling with the foods.  I start off ok in the morning but end up eating all over the place by the evening.  Last night we ended up for dinner at the beach (had to get take out as we had to get out of the house) with ribs/wings, and went for ice cream.  Seriously!!!!  What the f* is wrong with me?  This morning started with IP shake/spinach.  At art class had coffee, brownies, bit of cheese.  Sigh.

I'm also sad because before bed last night I took some homeopathic pills to help me relax from the anxiety.  They blah me down.  So I feel sad.  I could cry.  I must be irritating you by all this whining I'm doing!!!  I'm irritated by it.  I don't have the patience for me to be so wishy-washy with the eating.  Either f*n do it, or quit b*tching about it!!!  Makes me sad.  ha ha ha.

Going to plan for Sunday - back to IP or at least IP breakfast and dinner/snacks, and a Poon lunch.  Yah, ok, I know, I've been saying these things for the past 2 weeks.  Isn't that sad?  🙀😜