Been thinking, and talking a lot with AJ about moving. We are doing it. Got the pre mortgage approval and are planning this week to go visit Tillsonburg. It really has come down to AJ's decision to move. He really can't get around here without me. I have always felt a little guilty about moving here because of his loss of independence. But to be fair - he's always maintained he was fine with the decision, and liked living here. He was semi-lying to me. And he has not said anything about how he felt really for the last four years. Hence the lot of talking. I wanted to be really, really, really clear on his feelings. I do still have the guilt about moving here, but not that much as he never spoke up either - so that wasn't fair to me.
Still grieving moving. More so because this house and property are finally in order the way I wanted. I LOVE my purple house! (Hope someone else will too) And I really grieve moving away from all my rocks/plants/trees. I wish I could take them all with me. I told AJ that I will take some rocks with me. Walked around last night asking who wanted to move with us. Got a bunch. I personally moved, lifted, carried, place each rock/stone. I wish I could take the trees we got for our birthdays 3 years ago. All the plants I carefully picked and got. Sigh.
The other part of me is fine with moving. I really don't care for the politics around here. I do want a better backyard. I would like a roomier house and a concrete not modular house.
Where does perfect come in?
A few nights ago (not sleeping, but thinking of moving etc - ps still doing that), I was thinking of what $$ to sell for and what $$ to buy for so that I could visualize. I didn't want to limit things and not get the 'right' price. Then I suddenly remembered a few years ago I read a book that talked on this subject - of visualizing the right thing using moving as an example. The book writer talked about using the word perfect. That instead of visualizing a number that might limit use the word perfect. Because really, in the end what one wants is what is perfect for them. So, repeat / visualize / think 'we sold this house for the PERFECT price'. (might even be more then we thought! but at least it will be what we need). We 'bought our new house for the PERFECT price. (might have been listed really high, we offered what we could - and surprise they accepted).
Can even use that perfect for other things, like: I am the perfect weight! We won a perfect amount of money in the lottery!
Hence things are perfect with me. And if you would be willing to send us good thoughts, well, that would be............. just perfect. 😊😊😊😊
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