Rain

Cool day, now it's raining.  Weekend will be sunny, and then sunny for the rest of the week......apparently.

We had someone come in today to see the house.  No reply yet - hopefully tomorrow there will be good news.  This waiting is boring, and time consuming. Also doesn't do well - puts me on edge.  I cleaned and polished the house.  I pulled weeds outside and tidied what I could.  I need to stop that.  I end up eating over it.  By last night I was munching on Poon foods too much.  Today because we were out all day, AJ needed to get new pants.  HE of course, loses weight easily.  I did get a few tops/pants too.  One pant was a bit tight, it was a large. The medium didn't fit, and the extra large was too big.  The large fit the best, but still that just a bit tight feeling.  Was on sale, so I bought it - also praying I will fit better in them asap.  Jax went into daycare.  We had breakfast out, lunch out, and dinner take home. Back to IP tomorrow.

I get to take a shower tomorrow too!  So glad I can get this tape off me.  It's painful.  Suppose to keep the halter on until 3pm, but will take it off at 8am and shower.  I need to go to PetValu (seniors day), drop off the halter, and pick up some IP foods and head to my next test - nerve doc.  Need to remember to put on socks and runners for that.  They want my feet warm.

I hate when I go off plan, I GO off plan.  When I'm on IP I'm basically fine.  I wonder why that is.  I know it's not like I can live off plan like crazy.  I wonder if it's because I know I still want to lose 30 more pounds, and I need to get back on it so I some how think it's a get it in before I stop idea.  Whatever the reason - it's not go enough to continue.  Neither is the stress / anxiety over selling or moving acceptable to go off plan. Inside me says, eh, whatever.  How interesting.  Will bring that up at my appointment with Marly on Monday!

Those two days I was on IP / Poonish - dropped 4 lbs.  Probably found a few today.  Strongly recommend to anyone - this is not the way to do it!!!!!  Just continue and don't cheat.  Get to your goal.  Even though my original goal was 180 lbs (at 184 lbs) my new goal is still 155 lbs.  Maybe that's what I need to work on  -  that 155 lbs vs 180 lbs idea.  Still not acceptable to stay at 180 lbs for me.  Time to clear that out too!

I'm ready for bed.  Long day.  Night.