Houses

Where did the weekend go?

Yesterday we had a party to go to - AJ's family get together.  Was enjoyable.  I packed my dinner up (chips/shake/bar/noodles/vegs/drinks)  Had one pkg extra. I also got to see my sister and mother as my sister lives close to where the party was.  Haven't seen her in months.  She was surprised about my weight loss, said I looked good.  Later said she was the fattest of the family now.  I just shrugged and said when you are ready you will do it.  My mother didn't say much other then I was eating a lot of food when I listed what I was having for dinner.  I just looked at her, and said, yes, it's what's allowed.  I didn't have any other feelings about it like the last time.  So glad about that!

AJ said that I was still looking for approval/acknowledgement from my mother on my weight loss and struggling because she won't do it.  When he told me that I was able to let it go more.

We had a long drive to the party (2 hours).  Ended up talking about houses and where we live.  We have a land leased house and the company that owns it continues to increase the maintenance fees.  I LOVE our house - it's finally the way that I have wanted it.  Only two things I wish a bit for - to have more room in the backyard / be on water or stream etc.  But the rest of it, I'm so happy with. I'm sad that the company that owns it, is so greedy and doesn't do much for the fees.

When we moved here from the condo, I basically begged and cried to AJ for us to move.  He was happy in the condo, in the city, able to travel around the city on his own (without me having to drive him), worried about the $$$, worried about owning a house that would have stairs as he can't go up and down on them that easily.  When we talked about siding, we went back and forth and even looked as a few for sale in the community to see about moving instead.  We decided we would stay and therefor sided the house.

Now it is done.  AJ is open and talking of moving!!!!!!!  He is open to a townhouse style, with stairs - we could put in a stair master.  He's open to anywhere from Niagara to Kingston to Tillsonburg/London.  He's open to the issue that we will be putting out money for a place.  He's open to either a house or another community - NOT owned by the company that owns this place though. (I agree).

I don't know what to do.  I love our place.  But I am willing to let it go.  It belongs to God - not me.  So if it is that we are to move, I accept it.  I am willing to look.  I am willing to see other places.  I am willing to give up my wonderful house.  A bit sad as it an amazing colour of purple (my favorite).  I will go where Spirit leads.  I have always maintained I would give up everything if that would be required by Spirit.  So be it.  We put in a time frame of 2 years so that I have a focus of what we are doing.  I need that end date - even if the next day is when we move.  It just gives me a time line of how long I am sending energy and looking into this.

I do have a shift that happened too.  But I will write that in another post.  Back to looking at houses............