Peeking Bone

No, that's not me.

A few months ago I was on facebook and someone mentioned they noticed they had a bit of a collar bone.

I started looking.....nothing......maybe something?.......if I lean forward, a bit..... could it be?....... I see something......  It took a while, but I started seeing my collar bone.  It's the weirdest thing to be excited about, but when I first saw a bit of collar bone, I was happy.  I did have to lean forward to see it, but still - it was there - peeking out.  Then a few weeks later there was a bit more without me needing to lean forward - WOW.  I would laugh at how excited I would get to see my collar bone.  Every morning while I brushed my teeth I would look for any sign that I had more sight of my collar.  Now, I have my collar bone showing - just as I stand.  I'm fascinated with seeing it.  I don't really know why, but seeing my collar bone showing really brings proof to me that I have lost weight.  I love seeing it peek out of me.  My body is wonderful!

My legs are slimmer, and I look fine in shorts and heels.  I like that too, but it's still the collar bone that brings me the greatest joy.  My belly is still round and I know eventually it will get flatter (ok, I hope it will)  I can see where that last 30 pounds are hiding.

I've been thinking about 30 pounds.  It doesn't feel like a lot.  It feels like it's easy to lose.  I'm close, I'm good, I can do it.  I feel good about deciding on 160 pounds.  Even though I'm going to 158 lbs and then go onto Phase 2 then 3 and 4.  Anything below 158 lbs means I'm good to be off Phase 1 and gives me that bounce room.  I have decided that between 158 to 163 lbs is where I will allow myself - aiming to keep on 160 lbs. (or below that).  AJ is good with my decision too.  Not that it's up to him, but it's nice to have his support in my goal.  Then again AJ is my amazing support in all I do - the one that healed my heart, and loves me no matter what.  😍🌟🌟    And he does dishes.... ha ha ha ha

Today the food was:
B - shake/spinach, coffee
L - chicken a la king (pkg), spinach/mushroom, pickles, tea
D - pork, cauliflower, celery root, okra fries, cucumbers, tea
S - morning other half of shake, evening pancake fudge cake and rhubarb, cucumbers, tea

I'm drinking more tea instead of increasing the water.  I still have water, just liking tea lately more.

Next few days I'm going to aim for water (of course), eggs instead of meat, shakes - 2 and just 1 other pkg, light vegs like bok choy/kale etc.  I'd like a good drop in weight...if possible.  Will see what happens.