I Feel Skinny

Today was Poon day.  And IP day.  I did both today as I had to bring AJ to his brother's place.  They are playing poker and he needed a drive down.  Tomorrow we go for dinner at some friends place in the big city.... so AJ's sleeping over at his brothers, and tomorrow afternoon I will pick him up.  On to the city, for dinner and stay overnight at a hotel.  Jax gets to stay at the kennel, and the cats are watched over by the neighbour.

AJ let the people know that the food/meat for me is just plain if possible.  They were find with it.  They are very accommodating.  I do have my snacks and drinks planned to bring with.  Also I have my morning meal planned out.  And dinner for Sunday night made - just needs to be heated up.

With my IP weigh in - I was 0.  No weight loss but no weight gain.  At Poon's I am 3.8 lbs down - 5 pounds of fat, but up 1 pound of water.  Don't know how that works, but I'll take it.

Funny thing is, I feel skinny.  AJ, Laura and Dr B have mentioned I look slimmer.  Even when I dropped Jax off Patty said I looked good.  When I think of my body, I see / feel my collar bone, I see / feel my stomach flat and smaller, I see / feel my body slim and without excess weight.  I feel it.  So it must be true!!

I know sensing those changes in my body also help confirm to me that I can do it.

Today as we drove down, I also planned my meals and snacks.  Dinner was leftover pot roast and cauliflower/zucchini.
B - coffee
S - 1/2 muffins
L - cucumbers, 1/4c jicama, 1/2 shake, 1/4c rhubarb, coffee with some of my shake in it
S - 1/2 muffins
D - pot roast, 2 3/4caul/zucc, 1/4c rhubarb, rest of shake, and 1/2 puffs.  (mix of apple cinnamon and chocolate puffs)
S - rest of puffs, 1/2c chayote

I find more and more as I get away from those sugar spices that I'm not as hungry anymore.  So glad about that.  I still have munchie emotional want eating, but not as bad either.

I do have some concern about being at the dinner tomorrow as I struggle at times with being with a lot of people and food around.  Anxiety rises a bit, and these people are AJ's friends, though I do know them, I still feel the outsider and not sure what to say.  I know, I know just be friendly.  Funny how social awkwardness continues, even though I can do socializing, I semi-focus on food. Will see what happens tomorrow!