Update Monday

I'm back.  I had a bit of a challenging weekend.  More so Friday and Saturday. Sunday was better.

I struggle with the slow weight loss as you might know.  I get hungry and have pain with RA.  My left foot has really been painful lately, especially when I get up and start walking.  Fatigue hit me last week so I ended up not doing any exercise.  Which stresses me as I know exercise is good and helpful.   Because both AJ and I are on disability/pension/old age - there's not much money in it, so my spending, especially on food / pets / household is at the limit or over at times. More stress I feel.  Sometimes I wonder why I'm even wanting to lose weight. Only answer I still come up with is, I just feel it's time, and I want to.  Funny how not eating junk foods/quick foods etc verses the healthier foods - still comes out me spending same or more money on foods!!  I really thought once I cut out all the processed/refined foods that our grocery bill would at least go down some. It has not.  So why am I bothering with this?  Combining eating/hunger, pain, money/spending weighs heavy on me to the point at times I feel like I can't breathe.  I feel lost as to what to do.  The simple answers don't work, eat less, spend less, exercise more, don't worry etc as simply as it sounds.  This then, pulled at me last week to the point where I was just in tears and down, unable to think or write.

Now? I'm still in the downs but better.  I have started taking that CLO, which actually is helping me feel fuller.  Also I make sure I will have a chia/flax muffin if I'm feeling hungry with some butter/nc pb & jam etc.  Pain... well, that is still there, comes and goes.  Money...breathing thru that, unresolved at the moment but... Exercise, planning for it - though not today it looks like.  Snow shoveling is involved too!  booo.

I went with a friend from art class to her church on Sunday.  Still think that day when I didn't want to go, but did was a Spirit led guidance.  The church is a Catch the Fire revival church.  I was prayed over - open to that.  Emotionally, spiritually it calmed me.  What was said to me resonated.   I feel lighter from that service.  I asked for another more personal healing, which will be this coming Wednesday. I liked the service, though long, and will go back just for the service not like this time - for a specific reason of prayer healing requests.  Last night by 8pm I was ready for bed and went to sleep before 9pm.

Sunday:
Breakfast - scrambled eggs, lc bagel, butter, ncpb, jam, coffee and 'cream'/CLO
Snack - coffee/cream, 1/3 protein bar (during service ... remember it's long)
Lunch - Tim's - chipolte grilled chicken, minus the wrap, coffee/cream, rest of bar
Dinner - nupasta, stir fry mix, beef strips, jello, tea......still empty hungry - chia/flax muffin with butter/ncpb/jam.  After that I was content, full and peaceful.  Just had water before bed.

Another week begins!