Starving

This weekend I've been starving!!  Even ended up getting up at 3 am to sip a bit of my protein shake as I couldn't sleep.  Not the first time since being on IP that I've done this.  I really don't get why I am SO hungry on this plan.  I eat and then I could still eat.  But I don't.

I've been tired too.  I feel weak, and have been careful on doing any exercise. Today I did do 2 sets of weights - gently.  I just feel I need to do a bit of exercise. I did the weights at home too so it wasn't that hard.

Ended up eating a total of 5 packages today.  A lot of 1/2 packages that ended up equaling 5 in total.  I do feel better, and I'm having a tea now.  Something I don't tend to do so late at night.  One of the other things this weekend, I wasn't drinking a lot of water.  Kinda slowed on the water intake.  Funny thing was, the water didn't taste good.  I know, weird.  Water is beginning to taste better this evening.  I checked my weight this morning....still the same as last Friday.  Sigh.

I am surprised though that I have been so hungry and I continue to refuse to cheat.  I know I ate a bit more packages, but I have not touched to my mouth any of the other food in the house.  Especially since I have to buy food for AJ.  Like big delicious (he says they are juicy and sweet) strawberries.  Or my soft protein bread and almond butter that AJ is also eating.....  I will not cheat!  I have no desire to gain weight or hold back on my weight loss.  Which makes seeing my weight the same a bit sad.

I had to check last night at my numbers.  Hoping it would help me.  Sorta did, but not enough to make me feel good about it, yet I am grateful.  Since starting Poon, I have lost 47.5 lbs and 24 inches.  On IP I have (in the last 3 weeks) lost 13 lbs and 9 inches.  The Poon numbers include IP numbers.  I realize both numbers and timing are good. Just wish I had a bit more.  I am working at accepting I will not be 180 lbs by June 15th.  I just don't see that happening....though anything can happen and there is a tiny spark hoping inside me.

I know it is an every day, every moment work at it plan which will only truly show the bigger amounts as a past.  Which means, I need to wait another 3 months from now to truly see how great (?) my results are, but it is only today's work that I can focus on.  Well, doesn't that sound confusing?  It's like me looking at the numbers and realizing I have lost 47.5 lbs since I started.  I remember thinking way back then - would I ever get under 200 lbs?  Now I wonder - will I ever get to 150 lbs?  I'm basically at the half way point.  Wow.

Gave all those clothes I bagged away this afternoon.  On facebook in the community there's a boy collecting clothes for the Scouts.  PM'd the mother and said he could have mine.  They came this afternoon.  I got a skort from Costco yesterday, in medium.  A bit tight.  But I really liked it.  Going back tomorrow to get another (in medium) different colour.  I have goals! 😻

Got a call from Bill tonight.  They are coming at 730 am tomorrow to start the siding, YES.