I meant to write for the last couple of days, but just never got around to it. My weigh in with Laura on Friday was good. She and me = pleased. Tuesday is Dr Poon's weigh in. Look forward to seeing those results.
This week has been a bit challenging emotionally. That stress from the trip to Pickering continued all week, fatigued and crying. Finally by Friday I started to feel better. This morning I woke at 430am, by 530am I got up. AJ got up too. We had breakfast basically at 7am. By 12 noon I was so over hungry the stress was starting to come back. After lunch we watched tv and AJ had to rub my feet to see if that would help my body calm down (which it did help). I'm still fatigued even though I slept a bit at 1030am. AJ said I should not go out and do anything in the garden. Promised him I wouldn't......though the plants need water. (where is the rain they talked about??)
I did get the plants in the ground yesterday in hopes that the rain would water them. Neighbour Steve (NS) apparently isn't thrilled with me even though he said he would talk with me if things were an issue. Park Manager Rick was by the other day. I'm so glad I spoke with Rick first, I happened to be out. I said oh, yes, we are fine, everything is worked out and good. Rick saw my Round Up sprayed line which I made to define a boarder between NS and us. Rick said the line was exactly where it should be and was ok. He saw my arch and few fences I put up, didn't say anything about them. He wondered about the rocks I put back (per NS) at the front garden and thought maybe I should move them, but I said it was ok per NS. Rick went to talk with NS. Anne and I went to walk Jax.
Later I saw Rick elsewhere, and I said everything ok? Apparently not. Rick was a bit upset all of a sudden about the Round Up sprayed line - not the line, but the dead grass part of it. He said NS wasn't happy. Too bad (my thought). Rick said my arch and fences were ok and could stay but no more adding to it, and the grass had to grow again. (It will in time). Urgh.
Went back to my original plan - got grasses for the rock garden out front and planted them. They will grow 6-8 feet. I will remove my rocks during the summer from there too. I'm SO GLAD I put up the fencing/plant pots between us before Rick came by. I will just plant the flowers by the fences/arch and be polite to NS as I have always been.
Food all week has been good. I have had times where I wished for something else, or more, but only once I had an extra package. Today might be another day as it's been so long. I do fine doing Ideal Protein much easier then Dr Poon's at this point. I think though that it was good that I started with Dr Poon as it got me into low carb etc. I just would like to have started IP a few months ago. But that's over and in the past, and I'm on it now, so that's all good.
I have been reading Ideal Protein....Because it's your Life. By Dr. Tran Tien Chanh. He was the doctor that basically started the program of IP. Only on page 41 and I'm finding it very interesting. A big part of his understanding is that one needs to have compassion and love for self for the weight to STAY off. Also for weight loss, but more for the staying off as that's much harder. There's the guilt of eating involved - which in a sense causes weight to be gained. (re-gained). I'm probably really butchering his words....not great at composing. I can't highlight because I have to return the book to Laura.
Bits:
- Women who wish to successfully maintain their weight must ask themselves one question when they set out to slim down: What is the real reason that is driving me to constrain and modify my body?
- What is that sacrifice? If you think that diet-related deprivations are nothing but a succession of frustrations, don't go on a diet because you'll fail. If you consider them a necessary treatment, go on a diet. And if this approach is a challenge you want to take up, you're ready to embark on a fabulous adventure that will lead to a terra incognita or almost: your true self.
- Like a lone sailor, you'll have to go it alone. You must face up to the doubts, and resist the temptation to give up and seek refuge in your comforting eating habits.
- This is the big question dieters asked themselves: Do I want to accept myself as I am or fight it? when you put an end to the vicious cycle, you re-establish a dialogue with yourself. Diets fail because they go against what we are. You must be able to forgive yourself in order to lose weight.
- Fear is the opposite of love. It immobilizes you and confines you to the role of a victim. it makes you bear the weight of your existence and body. It's sometimes easier to sustain guilt through complacency, even if it causes pain.
-Because weight loss isn't only a matter of willpower.
- Genuine satisfaction lies in the rareness of temptation and the delight in yielding to it from time to time. ...... The same applies to the rules of dieting. You can have a great family meal or dine out at a restaurant once in a while. ..... They shouldn't be eaten every day. Treat yourself by enjoying a good meal; you won't gain any weight. (this also leads into the chapter about having compassion for self and not guilt with eating)
- When you're overweight, you don't like what you see in the mirror. You reject your body, which has become unrecognizable or was never accepted. After dieting for a few weeks and dropping about ten pounds, a patient can STAND HERSELF, buoyed by the initial signs of success. Then, she eventually accepts herself by making the most of her new-found body. That usually marks the end of her diet. But how long will she be able to keep the pounds off? Acceptance is insufficient because it does not answer the real unformulated need - 'I don't feel good about myself.' ....... In order for weight loss to be legitimate, it must be accompanied by self-compassion.
- Weight gain and difficulties slimming down go hand in hand with the disappearance of self. (like this statement)
And that's where I'm at with the reading of the book.
I also ordered Janeva's IP recipe book. It's the golden book of IP recipes - everyone on facebook who has it; loves it. Best recipes in it.
I'm off to continue reading...looks like rain (yes).
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