Good Bye

Difficult day.  

Good bye.  Gone.  Dead.  Sad.  Loved.

Got an appointment yesterday for today.  AJ and I brought him in.  Last night and for a few days he hasn't been eating much.  He was throat swallowing often.  And then... peeing on the rug.  (threw that out today)

Vet looked.  Said appeared like kidney failure.  His grass eating to try to calm his stomach.  Kidney failure causes toxins to release into the bloodstream and makes them nauseated.  His gums were white - anemia.  She agreed with us.

She took him back to put a catheter in his paw.  She then gave him a sedative.  She brought him to us... and she said whoa, that calmed him fast, he must be in a lot of pain as it relaxes and is a pain killer.  She said he was was so ready.

After the other needle, Moonbeam went fast.

We took him home.  We went and ordered a purple beech tree.  Will come on Saturday.  Moonbeam's body is in the freezer, wrapped up.

Yes, I bawled.  And I'm sad today.