Had a melt down the other day. Just feeling like I can't seem to do anything right. The plastic was really upsetting me then I unrolled the front carpet I bought for wet boots etc....and it was slippery. I lost it. I started crying and AJ said not to get upset. NOT the thing to say at that moment. I cried why not? Everything I'm doing is f*king up and costing us money. Then went and cried in my room.
AJ came a bit later and asked if I still wanted to go to dinner at Cate's. It was 10 mins before we had to leave. Told him I couldn't cancel at this time. So we went. Was nice and AJ got along with her husband. They never met before. Dinner was keto. My dessert was so-so (again something that didn't turn out exactly so it was just another thing on top of everything else) Made it thru the socializing fine of course. Came home and watched TV for a while, then bed. Next day a bit better.
And I saw Jerilyn. (therapist) Still see her about once a month. Rambling therapy.
I did talk about what I had written the other day about being empty. Thought about it too the other day. Still no answer about it. Just take things daily and it doesn't appear much of a future to look forward to. At the moment just don't have it in me. When I try it kinda falls thru too.
I did have a nice time meeting with my friend and her husband when we went to the States. I have thought about going again as I'd like to get some more teas before the snows. Which appear to be coming this week. I did kinda mention it to her but her answer was more along the lines that she wasn't wanting to travel the hour. I would meet her with or without hubbies but it appears she's not interested in it. NOT that I asked completely outright, so I can't exactly say what's going on with her about wanting or not wanting to meet. But I was a bit surprised when I mentioned going and meeting with her, her response was not to drive. Fair enough too - I don't want to drive in snows either.
I totally get not wanting to drive in snows. I really do. I am concerned about going to my sis's this coming Sunday for card making day. Apparently we are getting snows and part of me doesn't want to chance it on the highways with the way some people drive. Glad I have the snow tires being put on this Thursday.
Went out the other day and tried to fix that plastic. Still have lots of packing boxes in the basement. Took some and lined them upright on the bottom, then re-pushed the chairs / bbq / table against the boxes to push against the plastic. Will see how that works in the winds.
My baby is doing so well. Baby Milo the magician. He's so adorable, cuddly and soft. It's funny to watch him run around. Princess is getting use to him and tolerating him. Speaking of Princess - we are going to bring her to a new vet. Alternative vet. The place where I bring Jax goes (Tail Ranch) she goes there and suggested it. Princess has a scar under her chin again and a bit stressed over Milo I think. At first I was going to bring Jax as I suspect he has a fatty lump on the side... but that's not as urgent as Princess's issues.
Guess that's about it.
Toodles.
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