Doing better lately. Decided to skip Sunday's MTX shot and hope for the best. Besides I'm at my sis's that day. Still haven't figured out if I'm going to stay over that night as I'm not crazy about night driving - especially on the 401 highway.
We've had a bit of snow - nothing that stays. Flurries again today. But today is jammie day so I'm not planning on going anywhere either. Just reading. Which I'm not in the mood for at the moment. Did get some of my art work finished. Have to photography them and download them for one of the Sunday's Krystal's Colours.
I started a few days ago taking some DoTerra oils - Copiba and Zenodrine oils in water. They are suppose to help the body. Will see. Again, might be why I'm feeling somewhat better. Every time I think of stopping keto, as weight loss is not happening, I just don't want to. So I continue with keto. I do wonder if I could just stop dairy - maybe that will be of help. I'm into cheese lately. That and fat bombs. Really don't need those I think. And I should check my macro count. Eh...one day I'll plan that goal..... just not in the mood. I know not in the mood for much lately. At least I'm more content and on the up side of things!
We are planning to go to the States for those teas. Either this coming Thursday or next Thursday. Guessing we will just go on our own and maybe stop off for lunch too. Have Jax scheduled for next Thursday at Tail Waggin as this coming Thursday they are on holidays. We could put him in the Merithot instead which is a option. Have to see about the weather first. At the end of the month he's overnight at the kennel as we are in Toronto. Will be easier again with him overnight instead of trying to get home for pick up.
My plastic is still a 'challenge' for me. I did put some more cardboard up and plastic against it. I wonder if it will last the winter. Have to figure out something for next year's winter. As it is - I am liking the protection when I go out the door. Miss seeing the birds though. Think I will try moving one feeder closer and across from the basement window so I can see it. And the cats can too then. ha ha ha.
Milo is adjusting well. Knows to keep away from Princess, who is doing much better with the tolerating of him. That little magician is so funny to watch. And so soft. I read sometimes in the paper that there are other older cats needing a home, and I feel sad about that as we could have taken one of them too. But then what life would Milo have gotten? I read on FB about a groomer - let's just say - basically killed the dog by the end of the day. I feel sick. I feel sick just remembering reading it. I feel sick at the thought of what happened to that dog. I feel sick and heartbroken for the owners. I feel sick over all animals so cruelly hurt. I struggle with these thoughts/memories. Now those memories can disappear from my head!!!!!!! I know it happens. I just don't take it well. I just feel too much about it. And then I work at 'don't feel'.
Ironically 'don't feel' happens in my life generally, but not as easily with cruelty / harm / etc. It makes me not want to be here as I know if I get involved in something like that - to save them - the feelings/emotions would destroy me completely. I almost did get involved years ago, was going to be an animal control officer. Stopped that train. I do help in donating money - it's about as close as I can get. Why are people so cruel? To animals, to each other? Makes me feel in a way like a failure in life. There is a part of me that says Stand up and deal with it then! Go and fight! My insides stand up, I swirl, get sick, and fall down. What a failure.
Let's move on from that before it brings me down and crying.
Tomorrow I'm off to see my mom and then to my sis's for card making. Do look forward to making the cards. Don't look forward to the driving. I really want to come home that night and not stay over. Just makes it easier all around. Having trouble with sleeping lately. End up often on my chair. My chest is ok, generally, still have stinging sparks when I do things or go outside in the cold. They are better last few days. Huh. Wonder if it's the oils? Best keep taking them.
Tootles for now..
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