Split Sec

When I was driving home from my sis's the other day I was listening to some Karen Drucker songs.  One of her songs has that Marianne Williamson statement in it -

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” 
― Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles"


I have always loved this quote of her's.  So when Karen was stating it - at the part of the let our own light shine - I saw for that so very split second the light of me.  

And then it was gone.

I know that light is in me.  I thought in the split second what would I be like if I let my complete light shine?  And ..... I can't explain the feeling - there are no words.  It was so fast in and out.

One of the other things I realized - driving to my sis's place - that I have a lot more strength in me then I have before.  It was like there was an awareness of how much more stronger I am inside.  Not that I've changed.  Just that I felt stronger inside.  Strange, but good.

Lastly, 
I went to see Diane to get that healing done.  Get that sword out.  Her take on the sword was more of 'it's like it's a taffy, sticky blob inside your chest'.  She got it moving.  As far as what it is / is about - she kept getting that I knew what it was.  Huh.  Ok.  Uh.... guess I have some work on that.  Going to use some essential oils, chimes to continue to move the ''taffy'', look for something in binuaral beats for getting answers / awareness.  And lastly email Joan.  Maybe she has some insights.