In this town if there's a rumble of thunder or a drop of rain, the chances of the power to go out is very high. Power was out for about 1/2 hour this evening, and that's really good. Then our router for the internet was out..... ugh. Took AJ a few hours to get it going. He says we need to get a new one very soon.
After dinner I just couldn't stay awake. Ended up in bed sleeping by 630pm. I had cleaned the garden a bit as I couldn't cut the grass.... rains and thunder. Moved a few tall 'weeds' to the back and removed others. Hate that my chest hurts doing it. Need to book with the NP and see if she will send me to have my heart checked, per the oncologist's suggestion. I wonder if she read his report and just decided to skip that idea. Pisses me off - she and I don't get along, will be glad when the original NP comes back in March. If she doesn't send me, I have one other thought - go back to the Heart Specialist I saw last year in Barrie. Maybe I can get in with him. 3 hour drive, but still.
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I talked with Joan last Thursday. We did some healing on money. Have a few affirmations to do about it. I was able to get some healing done with the cash money, but with the blank cheque I had difficulty. She said we can work on that.
One of the affirmations was about the right to exist and it being my birth right to be here. I found when I was meditating on those two I could feel a low, deep, core waffling. Then there was the thought about being able to have large amounts of money came up against 'why' and not possible. Thought that thru to why not? What makes it that I must only have less and little?
I come up against a memory that I had seen an astrologer who told me when I was about 19 yrs old, I would never have much money as my sign/houses showed that. The only way I would have any money would be due to my /if I had one / husband. Well, I do have one now - so why not the money then. In a way we do have money, but on the little and less side - for the moment! I wonder if that kind of thing can change. If being born under a less/little money sign can be changed. Feels in a way that it's written in stone. So how do I change that thinking and heal that issue.
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I don't think I wrote - I got my blood work results. Got if from the irritating NP when I saw her about going to the skin doctor for my face. She wrote up the referral.... probably because I had already seen her, and the doctor was planning on seeing me as a patient and the NP couldn't really say No. Yeah, I couldn't wait until October for the report. I also got a copy of the total xray. Basically from my readings -
1. My lung volumes are reduced. (per report statement) Isn't that interesting? With all those times I've been squawking to chikki NP I can't breathe/my chest hurts.
2. No lesions, mild wedging of bones/spine especially on left hip.
3. (This is now me reading the blood work) - shows MGUS (said this), looks like to me a question about my ferritin (storage iron) is low, range is 37-400 mine is 67. calcium is getting high, range is 60-250, mine is 245. And it looks like a question about kidney issues or infection. Of course I have to wait to see what the doctor says, but at least I know it's not that bad, but following the truth of what I've been saying.
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Lastly....
I ended up being a demonstrator for Northern Stamper. I was talking with my sis about some of the deals and stuff. I love the paint markers. She said in that case it would be wiser to join and get the current deal with the included ink stamps. Got some more stamps too - the cats and the pigs.
Did come up with another person to give a card too. The neigbour behind us gave us some of his garden cucumbers. They were good. Thought I'd give him a thank you card.
Guess that's about it for now. I'm tired again, but semi-unsleepy. Not sure if I go to bed I will be able to sleep. My chest hurts, And it feels like I just can't get air in. I know I am getting it, but still. No, that's not cuz of the report - I've been saying it for 8 months now.
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