Night Mares

Too bad I'm not talking about black horses.......

Lately I've been having troubling dreams.  Not that anything is overly scary.  They are just upsetting when I wake.

Last night I had two.  One was something about a house.  I'm sorry but I just can't remember exactly what happens in them.  It's been happening for a few nights - not every night tho.

This morning I dreamt I was in bed, and my father came into the bed with me and was trying to feel me up / wanting to have sex.  Eventually I was able to say this wasn't going to work, mom is cooking in the kitchen.  I was thinking I really need to have sex with someone else.

Woke kinda nauseated. Sigh.Sometimes I think those memories will always be with me, and come up off and on - and still nauseate me when I remember.  I know it happened, I've dealt with is a lot, but the memories that come......they will probably always shake me a bit at first.  I am calmer with them as the time goes on, and I place them in my mind in their awareness and let them go.

So, going back tho to the dreams.  And why.  I'm not sure.  They only thing I can closely link to the dreams is I am listening to the binaural beats - a specific one on Letting Go.  

Mantra to Overcome Attachment and Letting Go ❯ MOH MOHIYA ❯ Mantra Meditation Music   

There's something about it that I like.  Even if it's causing nightmares, I still want to listen to it.  I think there's something in it that resonates with me - and that I need it.  So I continue to listen to it.

I sense that I'm bringing up memories and clearing them out.

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Happy that yesterday and today was cooler.  Got the grass cut.  Tomorrow I go to sis's for that card making day.  Apparently my cousin and sis's friend will be there too.  4 of us in total.  Don't really look forward to the drive there and back as it's long, but I do like the chance to see them.  Will be interesting to see how my cousin will be with me.

Nothing else much happening.  Bit itchy feeling still.  Much better today.

There is kennel cough going around in the dog park.  Bit of a concern as I did bring Jax this morning - no one really for him to play with.  Will keep away again with the heat coming back.  Hope Jax will be ok from today's visit.  He really needed a change.  Poor little pup stuck so much in the house with the heat.  

That's about it.