Pink

Rob finished my bathroom.  It's pink.  It has a lot of grey-black tiles so pink was a light colour for it.  And I got a new light too so it's brighter in there.  It's a small, walk in shower type of bathroom.

Rob is a good handyman.  He's done a lot of work around here and is basically finished for the moment.  Next year he will come to work outside - too cold now.  He likes me.  I know this because, well because when we spent the day outside on Wednesday I simply said besides you like me.  He replied yes I do.  He's 'married'.  We joke around a lot and I've known since about 2 weeks after he started working that he liked me.  It was just a feeling I got.  About a month ago I found out his wife is large, and that's when I knew yes, he does like me.  I'm not as large as her.  She came to help paint the house.  She's nice, I like her.  Rob likes AJ too.  It's not anything there that would cause either of us to do anything, and I don't have any desire to do anything with him or anyone else.  I love AJ and I'm content being married.  Besides, I have too many health issues!  But it's nice to feel liked by someone else.  Especially at the size i am.  AJ loves me, but I was much slimmer when we met, and he once said he won't have dated me if I was large.  Then when I got ill and larger he still loved me.  

I once asked AJ about his previous statement and whether he loved me the way I looked then.  (I was 180 lbs when we met, went to 240 lbs, and now 200 lbs)  He said he thought I was beautiful at any size and that he loved me.  I know he loves me, I know my size doesn't matter to his love for me.  He apologized for saying something like that - that he wouldn't  have dated me.  Confused?  I guess that's why Rob's immediate statement, and he admitted he liked larger women all his life, made me feel good.

That being all said.... I like Rob, he's nice looking, but AJ is really the one I love and am interested in.  And Rob can continue to do the work around the house as needed.  I will miss him once everything is done.  ha ha ha.

I got a cold, I hope it's just a cold and not into my lungs.  I didn't feel well last week and kinda thought it was coming, but was able to keep it at bay.  But spending all day outside with Rob working on the cover over the deck (needed repair so the rain and snow wouldn't go thru) I think just pushed it over.  At one point I felt my feel were cold.  It was a nice, sunny day, I was dressed warm, but I guess ????  It doesn't help being fatigued and then being tired from the cold.  I've been going to bed the last two nights at 7pm.  AJ laughs at my squeaky voice.  Even recorded it as he thought it was funny.

That's it for now.  Tomorrow, thankfully, is jammy day!  Not doing anything but reading.  And maybe some cooking.......