Yuph

Yuph.  It's her problem.  I spoke with Jacqui about my cousin, and she explained that it had to do with a past life when we were sisters.  We were very, very close.  But what happened was her boyfriend fell in love with me, and I fell in love with him - it wasn't anything malicious or intentional, just happened and we couldn't deny it.  When we told her, she swore to never speak to us again.  And she still hasn't because of it. (spoken with me)

Her chance here now is to learn to forgive, which doesn't appear like it will happen.  Unless she gets a clear insight and grabs onto it, she will miss this chance to heal this issue with me.  Her time here is to learn not only to forgive me, but others.......

In the end, I don't need to do anything but send loving, healing energy to her.  Easy to do.  Makes it so much more easier now to deal with.  I understand where she is coming from, why she gets along better with my sister, and can be at peace wondering if I need to do anything.  Apparently even she doesn't really understand why she can't talk with me, even though she wants to, she's stuck in not forgiving.  Kinda explains her need to not let me play with her toys - I would take them/ keep them fear, why she is ok with my sister - no problems there, and why she will not talk with me.  I can leave this now.  

At that point, I asked Jacqui about Kim.  When I first went to the dog park, Kim was friendly and spoke with me.  But then I said I was looking for Michelle and she was semi-ok still.  But when I came to the Dog park meeting with Michelle - she flipped inside.  When I went home that night I KNEW something had happened and that Michelle and I weren't going to be overly friends and that Kim definitely now wasn't going to speak with me.  Jacqui said yes I was right about Kim's reactions.  Apparently Kim is being a jealous teenager and not wanting to let me be friends with Michelle.  And Michelle unable to stand up to Kim (not easy to do as Kim is very vocal and aggressive), and wanting to keep on friendly terms with Kim is backing away from me.  But Michelle would like to be friends with me as we have similar interests.  Sigh.  Oh well.  So much for that.  I will continue to be friendly with both, and continue to keep lines open with Michelle.  She came over while we were in the States and fed the cats.  I was super surprised she did not take her art supplies home with her - it was my way of giving her a chance to take them without having to deal with me.  I don't know why she left everything still here.  I hope one day she will come over and paint again with me.  Michelle is suppose to meet me Thursday for my next tattoo.

Other then that not much more came out of the conversation with Jacqui.  About my weight - basically it's up to me.  Ironically!!!!! I did not ask her about being forgotten!!!!!  I can't believe that.  I totally forgot about it.  That would have been something else to take with her about.

I do have a phone appointment with Joan this Thursday evening - which I will talk with her about that.