Bathing Thoughts

Since we cleaned the house ourselves the last few days (yup, took us 3 days to do the cleaning - but things are nice and clean!  Finally!)  Yesterday was bathrooms.  AJ has a bath seat and bench.  He needed the bench to get himself over the 'lip' and into the tub.  Couldn't just step into the tub and sit on the chair - too unsafe and unmanageable for him.  Because the tub has a bend / soaker I suggested when we moved in that he would be safer if he had the chair and the bench over it, so that if the bench moves he has the chair under it.  A slip has happened once, it was a good thing he had the chair under as the bench slipped a bit.

We had cleaners come in last year from about Oct to Dec beginning.  I called to put them on hold, she told me they wouldn't come then until March.  I said fine.  Now they will not be coming at all.  I have the photo 

It doesn't look as bad on the photo - but in person..... disgusting!  I had specifically TOLD them that these needed to be cleaned all the time.  Obviously they never cleaned it.  So that means, when they did the tub, they didn't remove things!  So I scrubbed everything.

And then afterwards, before bed, I decided to do a soak.  It's something I don't do often as it fatigues me getting out.  

At the last minute I thought maybe I would read something.  I didn't want to go downstairs to get something, so I looked in my meditation room.  I found a book I had started reading months ago, and then picked up and then put back a book I hadn't even opened, but pulled it out again.  I put it originally back because it's about food and eating.  And I'm not interested in the learning to accept idea.  But It drew me.   Book is Eat like an Elephant, Look like an Angel.  I know right.  Thought I would start with that and flip thru a few of the beginning pages just to see what it says and then read the other book.  Never got to the other book.  I found a nugget in the book.

Safe.  All about the feeling of being safe.  I'm going to have to blog on that specifically as it's too long here.

I did the Love Challenge meditation that night in bed.  And slept well.

I have been feeling so much better - other the fatigue - and much more happier.  I think the hormones and Thyroid hormones are starting to kick in.

When I got out of the tub, fatigued and careful, I said to AJ (who had came up to talk with me) to stay and wait as I was concerned - didn't want to collapse.  After a bit it was better.  I thought about it, it's like very low blood pressure.  And that gave me another insight.

When we were eating so much processed foods etc, I had increased my blood pressure meds (asked the Nurse Pract for an increase which she gave).  But now with the better eating..... I checked, my pressure is lower.  So I think / sense / feel that when I take my meds in the morning, the pill is lowering me too much, hence then fatigue and need to 'pass out' and sleep.  Going to start on 1/2 pill again.  I did use that before.  I am just sensitive to the meds.

Going to try later to make some cookies and meatballs.  We are going out on Wednesday and I will need food to bring with me as we will be going to Tim's for lunch to meet a friend of AJ's.  It' fine with me.  AJ asked and I said it would work ok.  I'm good with the decision, I will just bring food along.

Ta