We moved to this little Cove (hence from now on called the Cove) over 3 years ago. I love that we have a house, we were in a condo before.
During the first year, I wanted a puppy, but we ended up deciding to let it go. In the second year, I couldn't let it go - for 20 years I wanted a Havanese. I found one, and he is my little delight. JJ helped me by getting me to walk. I wouldn't walk for myself, but for him, yes.
As you can guess, I'm not much for exercise. Except those two times in my life when I was 'nuts' with weight loss. I'd exercise daily for like 3-4 HOURS! But then again, I was on pills that just kept me going, and going, and going.
With this, leisurely walking, I started looking into eating healthy, and maybe losing those extra pounds. I attempted juicing, even buying a $400 juicer (sold it for $100), and then into vegetarian. I actually started to feel better on the vegetarian foods, though the weight remind. Well, I also included all those bagels and treats, so no surprise.
What I did learn was to cook more veggies. And that has been so helpful overall. I found and printed many recipes. Became a hobby for me. It has gotten to the point where I can look in the fridge and see veggies and figure out dinner. We eat a lot more veggies now instead of tossing them. So glad $$$$$.
With this change of veggies, I still would eat meat. I couldn't figure out how to define it until a few weeks ago. I'm a MEGAN. Not the girl name, but a MEgan. My heart is more vegan, but there's still some meat in my mouth. When I say some, I do mean some. Not everyday meals, but once in a while.
During this time my best friend Talia, who I met in OA years, and years ago, mentioned she was going to a food addiction treatment centre. RH is/was doing a trial on it. As she talked, I felt a longing. She was doing well overall but having some trouble in a bit of weight gain. She lost her weight those years ago, as I did, but she kept it off where I eat a lot of it back. I got the number from her.... talked with my hubby, and later called. In August 2016 they called me for an intake, and I got in - with a date for November 7, 2016.
Between June 2016 and August 2016 I kept flipping in wanting to go and deciding to cancel as I can do this on my own. (Yeah right.... well, yeah I could, but help and support is more successful for me) Thankfully, I didn't call to cancel.
Once that intake was over, I was all for it. I knew I was ready. This treatment is - no sugar, no wheat, no grains. Basically low carb. Have done low carb and it does help me. I'm diabetic and less carbs is easier on me. I know this from my own experience. What I could never get to is lasting more then 7 days off carbs and sugar. This place is 21 days - staying there. I'm sure those counselors are ready for the roller coaster that I will go through.
So here I stand on the edge, and am I ready to jump?
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