BETTER THEN CHRISTMAS

I'm excited.  The count down has started, 30 days to go.  Plans are in place.  Excited thoughts of how well it will go.  Dreams of how easy I will get over the struggles of being off sugar, wheat and grains at RH centre. How when I come home, I will be able to continue.  (oh that one I really pray will happen!)

I remember how excited I would be in December as the days counted down to Christmas.  And then it would be over - what happened?  That's why this is better then Christmas, because when I get home, it will really start - or continue.

Okay, I know it's a bit crazy to think things will go easy.  I choose to believe that no matter what the challenges are, I will be able to get through them - at least I'm hopeful for that.  As I eat a Tim Horton's muffin.......

Lunch was veg with some nuts and hemp seeds topped off with herbal tea laced with lemon and stevia and a Tim's muffin.  

Part of me has thoughts of it's only 30 days left.... have what you want because you won't be able to have it again.   Smarter part of me knows, that's not true, it's a lie and you know you want to eat healthier.  I am attempting to continue a healthier path even before I go, because, well because it's truly better for me.

I came across The Diet Rebellion site when I was looking for support.  I looked into it.  I like their idea.  I believe that's the route I'm going - even though I'm doing low carb/abstinence and planning Dr Poon.  It's about loving yourself where you are and choosing health.  (my take on it)  I know when I turned 50 yrs old, I thought, this is it, I don't have to care anymore what others think of me I can now love myself and my body as I am.  I would look in the mirror at my beautiful naked self and think I look good.  Mostly.  There were times that I didn't think good thoughts and ran to a diet idea.

Sad that I had to believe I needed to wait until I was 50 yrs old to love myself.  But it's where I was.  Spirit I believe knows when we are ready. Even after turning 50 it took me another 3 years of learning to get to this point.  And 5 years from now I can look back and say - it took me 5 yrs to get to here (there).  Sometimes things go slow....aurgh. 

I'm so glad Christmas comes early for me this year! ha ha ha.