Wednesday, October 5, 2016

Let it Begin Again and Again...and Again

They say that the third time is a charm.  May it be so for me.  My name is Krystal and this is my journey for my third major life change in weight loss.  I choose this change to be a spiritual one along with my weight loss.  

This is my first time doing a blog, so please bare with me as I learn to write this blog and what I'm writing.  

I'll start with some of my background.  I'm 53 years old, married to a super wonderful man, have two cats and one little dog.  We live in an adult community and am so grateful we were able to buy a house here.
I grew up on the chubby side.  At 18 I married a very nice man who loved me as I was.  Though at that point I had no idea of who I was, and that marriage ended 2 years later when I asked him to move back to his parents.  (We eventually divorced 5 years after getting married)

At 20 and weighing around 280 lbs, I decided I was going to be different and change my life - life change number 1.  I went to the doctor, got diet pills, changed jobs, and barely ate.  Soon after I found interest in date - something I really didn't do in my teens as I was overweight, shy, quiet and lost then.  I started dancing Sunday nights.  Between dancing, diet pills, very little eating, and dating the weight melted off - in 7 months, I was down to 180 lbs.  I couldn't get lower then that weight, but I was happy and busy for the first time in my life.

I moved out of my parents house (that husband and I lived with my parents for those 2 years) and into an apartment.  It was in a very 'lively' area in the city and I was from the country.  It was party, party, part!  I was naive.  Very soon after things were crashing on me, I had quiet my job, the boyfriend left, I had divorced my then hubby, I was upset and my mother came and got me, bringing me back home to her house.

I went back to the one thing I knew best - eating.

I had kept that weight off for about 1 1/2 years, and in 3 months I had gained 60 lbs.  Junk food, sugar, and carbs were my so called friends.
Between 25 and 40 I had feeble tempts to break up with those so called friends and weight loss.  Crazy diets, hypnosis, prayers, etc and therapy - which helped me heal a lot of my childhood traumas and issues, but not my weight.  I was at this time, isolating myself from others.  I had a steady job, in debt, and basically lonesome.  I read a lot of books on self-help and change your life.  What changed was someone from church asked to come visit me weekly.  I was beyond thrilled.

Ah, memories... more later 

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